Learning as I go!

Christmas Card

2011-11-28T15:09:00.000-06:00

So yall know I used Shutterfly last year for my Christmas cards, well this year I found an amazing site with adorable cards. It's called Tiny Prints. Their cards are so amazing you have to check them out. I have gotten a couple of pictures printed through them but just now looked at their cards. I have to say they are so much cuter than the others. Here are some that we are thinking of using. What do you think?
Find all their great cards HERE

Meeting KY family

2011-06-09T17:11:00.000-05:00

The day after Lily turned 2 months we decided to take her to meet some family in Kentucky. It was a lot of driving, but we had some fun and they were thrilled! Lily got to meet her great grandmother, great aunt, and great uncle! They took tons of pictures and held and loved on her like crazy.

Lily did really well on the drive up and back. Which really surprised me. She slept the whole way there and back, but was still tired from all the driving and being in her carseat so long. She fell asleep while her Mamaw was holding her and it was so cute. She laid back and had her hands out just like she does in her bed at night.

Lol I guess she was really comfortable!
I wish we could do it more often and hope to go back soon.

Memorial Day

2011-06-09T17:02:00.000-05:00

For our 1st family Memorial Day we met up with our moms at a local park to grill out. It was nice and relaxing! Luke's mom had everything set up for us since Luke had to work that afternoon and Luke grilled up some hamburgers and hotdogs! We got some great memories from it too.

First Marita knocked over a grill at another shelter. Lol It was rusted through and she was trying to get the coals lit. She even had to use her diet coke to put out the coals! Then later while we were eating and talking Jaina, our dog, got up on the other table where we had the food and got the remaining hot dogs Lol No one realized til my mom looked over and Jaina was on the table scarfing down the last one! I was feeding Lily in the car, but it was still funny! Other than that Jaina did really well and Luke even got to throw the ball with her! It's been so hot out recently and we've been so busy with Lily, we haven't been able to really play with Jiana like we use to. We try, but there's nothing like going outside for her.

Also Lily was so alert in the beginning! It was so hot we put her in her stroller so she wouldn't be hot against us. She loved it! Luke's mom talked to her and Lily was smiling! She even smiled for the camera!

But after smiling so much, getting so much attention, and the heat, Lily finally fell asleep. But not before we had to take off her outfit because of the heat. So this is the cuteness of how she slept.

Overall it was a great day and we had so much fun. I can't wait for next year when Lily will be more active and really be able to enjoy herself!

Storytime with friends

2011-06-09T16:42:00.000-05:00

So ever since I lost my job back in 2009 I've been lonely and trying to meet new people. And having a baby has been a great help in doing that. So I decided to start a mommy meet up group and so far it's going pretty good. We go to storytime at a local library that is for little kids. And not just little kids but for infant and toddlers.

It's been great and so much fun. Lily is still too little to really participate, but it's fun for everyone none the less. Lily usually sleeps through most, if not all of it.

They read one small story then move on to music and other fun stuff. I sing to Lily even if she's asleep and the other kids get up and dance. It's so cute to watch a 1 and 2 year olds dance! I hope we continue to go because it's such a great thing for the little ones. We also meetup at other places, but I don't have any photos of those. Hopefully I'll remember next time. Lol I love that we are meeting moms and kids so that we have people to talk to and Lily will have friends too!

2 months old

2011-06-03T23:00:00.000-05:00

So Lily is now 2 months! Wow! She is 11 pounds 13 oz. and 23 in long. Such a big girl! That puts her in the 75th percentile right now. She really is getting so big, so fast. But with that comes great big smiles, laughs, talking, and cuddles! Everyday she becomes more and more active and I just love it! She has started 'talking' more, both to herself and to us. She loves her playmat although not so much for tummy time. I can lay her on the mat and let her entertain herself while I get caught up on laundry or dishes. It's really great. And I know she likes it because of all the laughs and coos I hear from her. Recently she has become a huge daddy's girl. Which Lucas loves! It's such an amazing sight to see them together. I really am very lucky to have them both!! So the past few weeks have flown by, but not much has happened. Lily got her 2 month shots and it broke my heart. We're still looking at buying a house, but haven't found the perfect one yet. And since we're taking it slow that's ok. I'm hoping to go and look at a few more next week, but we'll see. Nothing is ever as I plan it since having Lily. She really makes life interesting Lol. Like right now, she's laying in her cradle just laughing and cooing. She should be asleep, but I guess this is what she'd rather be doing lol. I find myself smiling more now then ever before and I feel so much happier! Being a mom is really the best thing in the world to me. Well not too much to report right now, so enjoy some baby pictures!

In her monkey robe

smiling during tummy time

asleep in her crib

more tummy time

smiling at her 2 month check up

Pretty girl

Daddy's girl

Lily's 7 weeks

2011-05-16T15:29:00.000-05:00

Sorry I haven't updated in a while, this mommy stuff can take up a lot of time. So Lily is now 7 weeks old and getting so big. I can't believe this much time has already pasted and she's doing so much. I don't know exactly how much she weighs but I think she's about 10lbs. We got for her 2 month check up next week, but I'm not looking forward to it because she has to get shots :( So far Lily is still doing a lot of sleeping, but is awake more often. She doesn't really like tummy time, not that she cries, she will just lay there. But she can hold her head up great when she is held against us. She's very nosy and hates to be held laying down, she has to be up and seeing everything that is going on. She coo's and ahh's and I love it. We have "conversations" and she smiles! I love her smile! I still think she's the prettiest and most perfect baby! Although I would love for her to stop fighting sleep at bed time. Last night she fought from 9:30pm til 2:30am. Then turned around and got up at like 4:30am. So I'm a bit tired today. She's still in clothes ranging from newborn to 3 months. Although the 3 months are a little big and most of the newborns are getting small. Lily has also decided she loves Jaina, our dog, as long as she's not licking her face. If Jaina leaves her sights Lily will start searching for her the best she can. It's really cute. She also searches Luke and I out too and of course we love her looking at us. We started introducing a pacifier and bottle to her over the past couple of weeks and so far it's slow going. She wants to take the pacifier but isn't 100% sure about it. And she has taken the bottle once, but only drank about 1oz from it. It was breast milk so we know it's not the taste. But I'm still getting the hang of warming the bottle up and everything too. So what else? Oh she now loves to watch her mobile while she swings, so it looks like we'll have to go buy her one for her crib too. She's still in her bassinet for now, but we're talking about trying out the crib soon. It'll just be an adjustment for me to have to wake up and walk across the apartment to feed her. But I'm sure we'll figure everything out. And the biggest news is that we are starting to look for a house! I'm so excited about this! We didn't think we could qualify or afford a house so we never looked into it. Well my grandparents have been pushing me to do so, so I went and found out we definitely qualify for a home loan. And there are a lot of homes in this area that would be less than our monthly rent! Woot! We're taking it slow for now and will pick up the search in the fall. We would look harder now, but our apartment lease isn't up until mid Jan and it's a lot of money to get out of it. So that's the update for now. Of course if you have questions ask and I'll answer! I'll also try and do better about updating. For now here is some pics of my Lily

One of her newborn pics

Jaina sniffing the baby

holding mommy's finger

Lily's 1st easter

So cute!

1 month old

smiling in her sleep

Just look at those cheeks

Going to cousin Elijah's 3rd birthday

So beautiful!

Lily's Here!!!

2011-04-05T21:18:00.000-05:00

Sorry I haven't updated in a while, but as you might have guessed, we had our little girl! She was born March 27th at 2:34pm. And she is beyond perfect! I was so ready for her to come and couldn't believe it when the time came. I started contracting on Saturday the 26th at around 6:30pm. But since I had been contracting for 10 days I didn't give it much thought. But around 7:30 Luke called on his break from work and something just seemed different about my contractions. So I decided to call my mom and have her take me to the hospital. We got there around 9:30 and I was dilated to 3cm, at my doctor's appointment the previous Wed. I was at 2cm. So they called the dr on call and she said they could admit me and I could have my baby!!! But at 3am I was only dilated to 4cm. So the nurse told me to try and get some rest and that might help things along. Well that was on joke, I haven't laid down for long when all of the sudden I got a huge contraction that made me start crying. I asked the nurse for some IV drugs since I wanted to hold out on the epidural but that was a bad chose. The drugs didn't take away any pain and only made me feel sick and like crap. 3 hours later I was begging for an epidural. When they started sitting me up to put the epidural in I started getting sick and continued to get sick the whole time. But it was finally done and the pain was gone! Yay! Well then the dr came in shortly after and broke my water, he said if I was making good progress on my own he wouldn't start pitocin. Well I didn't progress at all so on comes the pitocin, but the dr was nice and didn't start me off with a high dose. And actually it only increase to 6. Which is good considering I've heard of some women having to have in the 20s. My labor was progressing great, but I was still feeling sick from the IV drugs so I had to start oxygen and then my blood pressure went way down because of the epidural. But after the dr came back in and gave me meds to help with my blood pressure I felt great! Then around 1:30pm I starting feeling a lot of pressure and told the nurse, and sure enough I was almost fully dilated!! This was it! I was so excited but also so scared. The nurses got everything set up while I fully dilated and then around 2pm they had me start pushing. It took a few contractions for me to get the pushing right, but once I did everything happened at lightning speed. And then out she came! It was the most amazing feeling to have her on my stomach instead of in it! And I did cry. She was 7lb 4oz and 19in long. She took to nursing right away and once the lactation nurse showed me how to do things right, it's been easy going. Lily did have a little jaundice but it wasn't even enough to be put under the lights. Other than that she is perfect! We stayed in the hospital til Tuesday and have been doing great at home. Unfortunately Luke couldn't get off work after Tuesday so that's sucked, but my mom has stepped in and has been a huge help. She been here everyday except during the weekend when Luke was home. Lily is doing great and for the most part does great at night. We have had a few sleepless nights, but nothing too terrible. I hope it keeps up. She is an easy baby and doesn't cry except to be fed or if she has gas. She still little and I love it. Jaina is adjusting pretty well but is slightly jealous. But she is protective over Lily too. It will just take a little time for her to adjust but I think she's doing great with the whole thing. I will try to post regularly but things are getting to be crazy so just bear with me.

Lily Inara

She smiles!

Loving dad

Precious baby

Happy daddy

38 weeks: still no baby yet

2011-03-17T13:21:00.000-05:00

So I was really hoping to having Lily in my arms but she's just not having it. I went to the doctor on Tuesday and have progressed to 2cm and 70%! That's a great improvement and shows that things are on there way! So I've started walking like crazy to really get things going. We thought it had finally worked last night. I started getting contractions every 5 minutes but they weren't that strong. But after about an hour or so we decided to head to the hospital just to be on the safe side. They hooked me up to the monitors and checked my cervix. I was still 2cm and 70%. So they kept an eye on me for a while and we could tell I was getting good contracts regularly but when the nurse came back she said they just weren't strong enough yet and I was still at 2cm and 70%. So they sent us home. :( ugh I'm going to do more walking today and see if that doesn't help things! *fingers crossed* And I'm hoping that the full moon this Friday or Saturday will also help to push me into labor!!! Well a girl can dream can't she Lol

So this week has been another quiet week for the most part. We have got almost everything ready for Lily. We are still waiting for her dresser to be delivered and then we have to set up her room! We still don't have a glider yet but hopefully we can get one soon or use Luke's sister's old one for a while. I also have all of our bags packed and ready to go. Some are already in Luke's car to make things just a little easier. Lol And Jaina is definitely showing her little furry butt here recently. We things it's because she realizes that Lily will be here soon, but it is really annoying somethings. She has to have almost constant attention and has got so much energy it's crazy. And if we get ready to leave, you'd think we were going to abandon her or something. She acts like she HAS to come with us or we'll never come back. It's super pitiful and I hate that she's not 100% happy. But I know she'll get use to the baby and everything will go back to normal soon. Well that's it for me! I'll see yall next week or maybe sooner if Lily makes her grand debut!!!

37 weeks

2011-03-10T23:04:00.000-06:00

Well since I was so late getting last weeks post us, this one isn't going to be too long. I am still 1cm dilated :( And we'll just have to see what happens this next week. The doctor said it's not bad news that I'm still just 1cm, but it doesn't mean I'm going into labor right away either. We've spent this whole week getting all of Lily's clothes washed and her stuff put together. We also bought some more things we needed for her, and I should be finished by tomorrow, minus maybe some clothes. I can't believe I could have her at anytime! It's so exciting!!! I'm really tired all the time, probably because I've been more active lately. I just want everything or at least most things to be done before she gets here! Well that's actually it for this week, maybe I'll have more news next week!

36 weeks

2011-03-07T15:01:00.000-06:00

Sorry for the delay. Well Saturday we finally had our baby shower and it went really great! We still have a few more things to get before Lily arrives, but we got a lot of really great stuff too! Unfortunately Luke found out Thursday night that he wasn't able to come. His work was short handed and couldn't let me off :( It was really sad not having him there. But later when he got home, he got to see all the stuff we got and I know he was just as excited as me. So this week has been slow except for us cleaning the house and getting Lily's room ready. My grandparents got us Lily's crib set and it is so adorable! (picture below) Now we just need a baby to put in it! We also went to the doctor last week and found out that even though Lily is still pretty high up in my belly I'm 1cm dilated and 50% effaced. It's not huge but it shows that my body is getting ready for labor. So we're thinking she's going to be here in the next 2 weeks. The doctor doesn't think she's coming this week but we go back on Wednesday and we'll see where we are then. Hopefully more along! I can't wait to see our little girl! She's still pretty active even though she doesn't have much room. She loves to roll around and poke! She kicks rarely but still does. It doesn't hurt too much and is really just more of a shock than anything.
Well I know it's short but that's really all for this week. We're still getting the last things together for Lily and waiting for her arrival. She'll be here soon!

36 weeks!

Lily's crib all set up and waiting for her to be put in it!

35 weeks

2011-02-23T19:46:00.000-06:00

So another busy week has come and gone! And I'm actually posting on time this week. Lol Well like I said this has been a really busy week. Last week my car had to be taken to the repair shop to fix the a/c, well they replaced a part, but found out that's not the only issue. Then on Sunday while at Wal-Mart my car decided to not turn on. We just replaced the battery last week so we know it's probably something to do with the alternator. So on Tuesday we had to wake up at 6:30am to jump start it and take it back to the shop. It's still there which sucks, but I'm hoping to hear something tomorrow about it. It may not be until next week when I can get it back. I hate not having a car! I feel so bad for Luke because he has to go with me for everything. Usually I could wait til he leaves for work to do some things but now we have to wake up early and get them done before he leaves. Ok so now that my little vent done.

This past weekend Luke and I finally got to celebrate Valentines Day! It was a lot of fun. It started really early on Saturday, Luke went to the park to play football with some coworkers and Jaina and I went for a walk. After they were finished playing Luke went with us to the dog park to play! Jaina of course thought it was the best day ever! Lol It was chilly so we headed home and just spent time together. Around lunch time we decided to have an indoor picnic! We had planned on being outside but it was just too cold. It was actually really cute and I really enjoyed it. Then after a nice little nap for me (I just have to have one everyday now) Luke took me to Texas Roadhouse for dinner then Maggie Moo's for dessert! At home we cuddled up on the couch and watched a movie! It was really nice and I even got flowers! Lol

So life has been a little busy and I know it's only going to keep getting busier until Lily is here! She's doing good too! She's still getting bigger and has been getting the hiccups a couple times a day and I love it. It's just a cute and cool feeling when she gets them and then starts squirming. Luke has even been able to feel her sometimes when she gets the hiccups. Lol she has them has I'm typing! We've started craving banana pudding this week, which just kind of makes me laugh. I like it, but to randomly just have to have it is just too funny. I go back to the doctor next week and I can't wait. This next appointment will let me know how close I could be to having her! I still can't believe that it's getting so close. I'm super excited but also super scared.

34 weeks

2011-02-19T15:18:00.000-06:00

So this week went by really quickly but a lot has happened as well. Unfortunately I was sick all last weekend with a cold and still having nose problems. It really sucks being pregnant and sick. I think it should be against nature or something. I mean you're already hurting from all the baby you have to carry and you don't sleep well. Add in being sick and it's just beyond miserable. Luckily I had my amazing husband to help me out! And since I'm finally feeling better, I have begun the nesting. I want everything clean! That means my house is looking nice all the time, but since the baby shower isn't for another 2 weeks means I'm going a little stir crazy too. So I'm trying different things to keep busy. I already took up reading, croqueting, and organizing pictures. I still have to go through my digital pictures and ones at my mom's house. That, hopefully, will keep me busy for a few days! We had a doctor's appointment this week and everything is still looking great! My blood pressure has gone down a ton and I Lily seems to be head down. But we won't know for sure for a couple of weeks. Unfortunately I don't get anymore ultrasounds unless medically necessary. So we just have to wait til next month to see what she's going to look like. I go back on Feb. 2 and will start going every week after that! Yay The doctor said he will check my cervix and see if I have dilated! I hope I have at least started to dilate by then but we'll have to see. He said most women dilate to 2cm before they go into labor. So I just have to make it til my baby shower and then I'm just fine with going into labor lol. He did tell me that if I have to be induced he won't do so until April 4. That isn't a set date and he said he could be anytime that week and we'll talk about it later if we have to. I really hope I go into labor on my own, but part of me hates to thought of having to wait another week past my due date if I don't. I just really want to meet her and hold her. So anyways Luke and I are enjoying our weekend together! This is his 1st weekend off in 2 weeks because he took some overtime last weekend. It was nice to get the extra money but sucked we didn't get to have a Valentine's Day dinner or anything. So we're doing stuff today! I'll post about it tomorrow or later this week! I did take a couple of belly pictures since I haven't in a while and OMG I'm huge! Lol There really is a lot of baby though. So enjoy the pictures and I'll write later! Bye

33 weeks playing in the snow!

34 weeks on our way to the dr

33 weeks!

2011-02-09T14:45:00.000-06:00

So I'm actually posting early this week! Lol Well me and Lily are still doing great. Although it is really starting to get harder. I'm hurting most of the time and so exhausted it's ridiculous. She is so big and her movements cause pain most of the time. I still love feeling her and it's cool to see her press against my stomach, but the pain is not fun. My back is hurting a lot too and overall I just want my body back. But I know I just have to get through the next few weeks and I'll have a new little girl in my arms! Woot! So this week I started craving chocolate cake! Yum I craved it for a day and then decided to go get one from Kroger at 9pm. But of course Kroger didn't have any small chocolate cakes. They had german chocolate (yuck) or a huge chocolate cake that could have fed me for a month. So me being me, I decided to just get cake mix and icing and make a cake. By the time I got home and put the cake in the oven it was about 9:30, meaning it didn't come out til 10pm. Then I had to let it cool, then icing. And yes I waited up because I'm the crazy pregnant woman who wouldn't go to bed without having chocolate cake. Lol So finally at around 10:45 the cake was cooled and iced! It was very yummy and I'm still eating on cake. Lol Luke just laughs at me over my cravings, but I have decided to just give into them at least a little bit.

This past weekend since Luke had off work, we decided to spend family time together with Jaina. We took her to Petsmart and got her a new rope toy, which she is super in love with. Then we went to my mom's to visit and pick up some things. Jaina loves going over there because she pretty much does whatever she wants and she had a basket of stuffed animals she gets to destroy. Lol I really wish I could get some video of her destroying these animals. She's so funny and loves to shake her head while biting them. I know that a lot of dogs do that, but that's not the funny part. What's funny is that if she had already chewed a hole in it, which she does fairly quickly, then stuffing starts going everywhere! Lol Well after we got home from all that, Jaina was tired and Luke took me for a lunch date! I was super excited because we haven't gotten to take a date in about 2 months! We didn't do anything fancy just lunch a Chili's. But it was really yummy and we got to spend some time together. And lucky me, I get another date this Friday or next weekend for Valentine's day! We would have gone out this up coming weekend, but they needed extra help at the jail and are giving whomever works overtime and that's a huge thing for them. Most of the time they give you what's called comp-time and you just get extra days off. This way we get more money!! And I really don't like crowds so celebrating Valentine's day early or late is better for me!
Also this week my car decided to die. Which just put me in full panic mode not having a car for a few days. I hate being stranded at home, even if I don't go anywhere I like knowing I can if I want or have to. Well this morning we got out to look at it and since there was corrosion of the battery Luke used Coke to get it off. Well that at least got power to my car, then with a jump start the car came back to life!! Yay As long as the battery doesn't go out again we should be great! Otherwise we have to get a new battery or if that doesn't work have to car looked at. But for now I'm happy!
Today the last batch of baby shower invitations finally got sent out! The shower was suppose to have been this past weekend, but the woman who was planning it started having vision problems and had to back out. So Luke's mom stepped in! I thought it would be a burden, but she really seems to be loving it. But that's just her, she loves throwing parties and the fact it's a baby shower is even better! And she's been so excited about us having a girl, well really everyone is, the shower will be all pinks and purples. I think. I know there will be loves of pink. Lol I can't wait for the shower! It's not til the beginning of March which is really close to my due date, but I think we'll still be fine. I'll just have a little less time to get things in order, but I'll manage!

Ok wow this is a really long post so I'm going to stop for now. I will try and get a new belly picture up soon! See ya next week

32 weeks

2011-02-02T16:46:00.000-06:00

So I'm posting on time this week! Yay! Lol So this week has gone by pretty quick, which I love, and has been mostly uneventful. Lily is still growing like crazy and getting so big she's starting to really hurt me when she moves or kicks. I did have some issues with contractions last night, but the doctor told me today that I should be ok since they went away after a few hours. I'm still a little worried, but won't give it too much thought as long as they don't start again. Also today my blood pressure was a little high for me. It was only 130/80 which is still in the ok range but mine is usually not so high. So I'm going to try and relax and hopefully it will stay ok! I didn't get to talk to the doctor too much today because he had to run out for an emergency c-section, but I do go back in 2 weeks! I can't believe that I only have 8 weeks til her due date and I'm considered term in just 5 weeks! I can't wait to see her and her cuteness! Luke is really starting to freak out though. He's been stressing more and more and has even started to break out. We both know that we'll do ok, but it's still such a big thing. And Luke has been amazing recently (and this whole pregnancy really). He massages my back when it's bad, he lets me go to bed early while he takes care of cleaning up a little or caring for the pets. And last night he even drew me a warm bath with bubbles, candles, and my rubber duckies! It was so sweet and really helped me feel better! I don't know what I'd do without him with me through this. I do feel bad though because most of the time he gets the blunt of my grumpiness, it's started to get worse. I've just been so tired and really starting to hurt a lot more. Lily is taking up so much room and sometimes I just don't see how I'll make it til March. But I know I have to and it's what's best for our little girl. So because Luke has been so amazing, I've decided he gets a present! It's a big gift so I won't be getting him anything for valentines day, his birthday, or our anniversary (I told him he won't get anything for father's day either, but I'm getting him something anyways! :) ) I can't wait to give him his gift! I know he will love it.

Ok so now on to Jaina. I haven't talked much about her recently. But she's really not liking this whole pregnancy thing and recently she has become the biggest mommy's girl! She goes crazy if I get ready to go somewhere and if I take a shower or even just go pee she acts like I've abandoned her. I know it's just because she senses that things are about to change and all but it's still so sad. The one thing that's been really hard is trying to ignore her more often. I preparation for Lily's arrival, we've started to ignore her some so she doesn't get constant attention. And we didn't want her to associate less attention with Lily being around. Jaina cries so much when we do it and it just breaks your heart. She's getting better and hopefully be ok soon. Also we got her a new bed which she loves, but hates at the same time. She'll sleep in it during the day if we put it in the living room and she'll even lay down in it a night for a while. But she still loves to try and sleep with us. We wake up every morning to her sleeping at the end of our bed. I even have to kick her off during the night and I hate doing it. I know she loves us and just wants to be near us. I just keep reminding myself it's for the best.

Well I think that about covers most of what's going on! See ya next week!

31 weeks

2011-01-30T13:25:00.000-06:00

Again I'm posting late but this time I have a very good excuse. I got sick with a virus this week and then I was having trouble posting. But here I am!
I am feeling much better and hope I don't get sick again for quite some time. It wasn't too bad, but still made me feel pretty miserable. And Lily is just fine, I went to the hospital to be checked out and she was active as ever. She loved kicking the moniter! Lol She really is getting big too. You can now see her moving across my stomach and she makes it look all funny when she is pressed against one side. I'm also getting alot bigger and starting to get more uncomfortable all the time. It really sucks at night when I'm so tired. Although if you saw me you'd probably laugh. I have a pillow under my stomach and one at my back, then I also have my blanket between my legs. And when I turn over, it's like a funny acrobatic move or something. Lol I really will be happy when I can move without hurting all over. We only have about 5-8 weeks left til Lily is here!!! I really can't believe we're almost at the end and about to start a new beginning. It really is scary, but so exciting!

Well I have another doctor's appointment this week and hopefully we'll find out when I get my next ultrasound! I'm hoping to get a 3D picture of Lily. I would love to see if she has chubby cheeks or what. Well see you all next week!!!

Big belly

29 & 30 weeks

2011-01-19T23:18:00.000-06:00

Sorry I'm posting late again, but my mind just forgot. Lol So the past couple of weeks have been pretty good! We got more snow, which I loved most of the time, and Luke got some vacation time! The snow was pretty, but actually caused a lot of problems. Packages that were suppose to arrive were delayed, and I had to stay inside more often because the ice was too slippery for me to walk on. One package was from Lily's godmother Whitney! She got us a highchair! It's so cute and I can't wait to see Lily in it! Luke got 6 days off work then only had to go in for 1 more before getting his regular 2 days off! So we've spent lots of time getting things ready for Lily and just spending time with each other. It was really nice! But I'm super excited about having Lily's room finally cleaned out! We got all the boxes emptied and her crib and changing table put into the room! Woot!! But while cleaning the room, we actually realized how little we have for her right now. I know I still have my baby shower in Feb. (sometime, still don't know exactly when), but it's sad to just see her empty crib and all. But at least the room is ready to start getting filled up!!! We are excited about her crib too. We found it on Craigslist and it was an amazing deal. It originally cost about $1400 without the mattress and we got it for $150 with a new mattress! It's convertible so it can last her til she off to college and the mattress is one that can go from infant to toddler! Which is cool because it's saves us even more! The lady we bought it from was super nice and had taken amazing care of the crib. It has gone through her 2 girls, but had only one or two little marks on it. The really cool thing is that even though it was bought about 4 or 5 years ago it still meets all the safety stuff. The company still sells the exact same crib new! Anyways so Lily is super active most of the time and loves it more when I talk then when I'm quiet! And still loves hearing daddy's voice. She's not kicking as much, but I'm starting to feel more pokes from knees and elbows. Lol And she has found my ribs and OMG I want her to leave them alone. She doesn't kick them often but when she does it hurts. I had my doctor's appointment today and everything is looking great! I'm measuring 2 weeks ahead so she'll either be big, long, or a little earlier then we first thought! I'm hoping more for a little earlier, but she'll probably just be long since Luke was. Because Lily is getting so much bigger I'm starting to get really uncomfortable, but Luke as been a huge help. My back hurts more, I'm getting morning sickness again, and heartburn is horrible. So I am starting to feel really ready for this to be over. But I don't have long now. So I'll try to remember to post again next week. In the mean time a couple of photos! Lol

28 weeks: the final trimester

2011-01-06T16:59:00.000-06:00

So we've made it to the beginning of the end! Just a few months til little Lily is here!!!! OMG I can't wait! It seems like it's been so long now. Although the time flew the first trimester, the second seems to have taken forever! So we're hoping this one will either go by fast or faster then the last! Luke is working if final shift at Best Buy today and he may still stay on there for occasional/season work. But as for now he's going to start having days with us starting next Wednesday!!! And he's even taking a long 6 day vacation! I'm so excited and we're hoping to get Lily's room completely prepped in that time. We can't complete it til after the baby shower (sorry still don't know when it's going to be) then buy whatever else we need. But we're hopeful that we can have it finished by the end of Feb. We did get to buy her crib this week! And it is beautiful and more than we ever thought we could get for her! I'll post pics of it next week once we get it up and everything! I'm still getting bigger and so it Lily. She's still active and letting us know she's in there! I don't see how she has room to move as much as she does, but I guess she just makes sure she can by expanding my belly. Lol

Jaina is starting to get more jealous lately and we think she's just sensing all the changes that are about to happen. She's a very smart dog! We've even started doing some training with her to prepare her for the baby and so far she really doesn't like it. And we know it'll only get worse before it gets better. She also thinks that everything that comes in for Lily is actually for her. Lol I know she'll get use to everything but it is hard to watch is struggle too. We try to give her cuddles and treats and let her know we still love her! Well I'm exhausted and need a nap. So we'll see ya next week!!!!

27 weeks: new year here we come

2010-12-30T16:44:00.000-06:00

This week has gone by pretty quickly. Maybe that's why I'm so tired. I can't seem to get enough sleep lately. I even take naps late in the day and by bed time I'm out pretty quickly. Well Christmas was great! Luke got off Christmas Day and we got to just spend time with each other! On Christmas Eve I went to my grandparents and had a really good time! Although I was reminded of how big I've gotten. We even got snow that night! It was amazing and my first white Christmas since I can remember! It continued snowing Christmas morning, but the roads were fine enough for our moms and Luke's sister to come over. Again another great time and everyone loves seeing how big I've gotten. Elijah was so cute, he helped his mom hand out presents and everything! We still how Luke's family Christmas on New Years Day! It's a couple of hours to get up there, but it'll be alot of fun! We're not doing anything for New Years Eve this year because one I'm pregnant and can't really party hardy, and two Luke has to work and won't be home til around 11:30pm. So really no use in try to go somewhere. But we'll have a good time at home just us with some sparkling white grape juice! Lol

Well Lily is still growing strong. She kicks and moves more and more each day. I can't believe how strong she's getting, she can really pack a punch in her kicks! And she gave Luke the best Christmas present, she kicked her daddy and he felt it for the first time!! We were so excited and she didn't stop at just once. She was doing somersaults in my belly for quite a while! It was amazing and Luke was on cloud nine the rest of the night and a couple days after! I'm so glad he finally got to feel her. He was really bummed that he hadn't. I hope she keeps it up, but she seems to like kicking and moving until someone tries to touch my belly then she stops. Lol Such a personality already. We go back to the doctor next week and that starts our two week appointments. Up until now I've only been going every month, but now I'll go every two weeks til the end of Feb. then it'll be every week! I can't believe it's getting so close to time!

Well here are some photos from the last week enjoy and see ya next week!!!!

Our little santa

Elijah helping hand out presents

Mom and Jaina

Jaina playing with an apple like a ball

Luke and Lisa

Pergler family

Luke, me, and my mommy

26 weeks: Christmas week

2010-12-23T20:41:00.000-06:00

So I've been super busy getting ready for holidays and I will be overjoyed when they are all over. It seems like this week has gone by so fast and yet I can't remember a moment where I wasn't doing something. And I'm still not really done. I don't know how I'm going to make it through the next few days without just falling over. Being pregnant doesn't help anything right now and it really may be making it harder. Anyways we finally got our Christmas cards ordered last week and they arrived in the mail last night. Luke and I spent a total of like 2 hours addressing and stuffing 50 cards. And wow I didn't even think we had that many people to send cards to but I guess we do. They turned out so good. I'll post pics next week once I know everyone has gotten theirs. I also finished my best friend Whitney's gift last night and it was so cute. I made her a tote that said "Lily's Fairy Godmother". I gave it to her today and at first she didn't realize what it really meant. But when she did her reaction was priceless, she almost starting crying and all. She will be an amazing godmother to Lily! Speaking of Lily, we had another doctors appointment this week and everything seems to be going great. They took blood for a gestational diabetes test and I should get the results next weeks (because of the holiday). We also learned that I have an anterior placenta. That means the placenta, which keeps the baby alive, is located on the front of my stomach. It's nothing dangerous and just means that it's harder for me and others to feel her kick. I just hate that they are just now telling us. It makes so much more sense to us now of why I was only feeling her really kick down low and on the sides. And also why even when she would kick Luke, he never could feel it. A pregnant friend did give us hope though, she said that we should be able to start seeing her move and feel her kick since she's getting so much bigger! Yay! We're also going to start having doctor appointments every 2 weeks til I'm 36 weeks then it'll be every week. It's just amazing that she'll be here so soon! We really can't wait to meet our little girl and just hug her! Well I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas! We'll see ya right before New Years!

Here's our big I have gotten. Wow!

2010 Christmas

2010-12-19T12:55:00.001-06:00

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week 25: end of semester & Baptist trip

2010-12-18T15:33:00.000-06:00

Wow this week has been so busy. I have finished my semester, Luke has time off, and we ended up at Baptist last night. I'll start with school. I feel really good about my finals and think I came out with a B in both classes, but I won't know for sure until next week. I won't be going back until next fall so I have time to get everything I need in order by then. Luke also took 2 days off this week. He got to use some holiday time and it was so nice to have him home with us. We did stay busy during those 2 days, but it was nice. We finished all our Christmas shopping, had lunch together, and even got to tour Baptist, where Lily will be born. The hospital is super nice and the delivery room in huge! We even got to see a few newborns in the nursery. It was so amazing and now we just can't wait to meet our little girl! Luke also decided during those days to quit Best Buy. He's going to put in his 2 week notice today and that will be that. It sucks that we will lose that little bit of income and of course the great discounts, but he's just too tired from working so much. We'll make it and I'll start working in the summer, which I planned to do anyways. And now about my Baptist trip. I accidentally fell last night and was hurting. Luckily I didn't fall on my belly, just my knee and hands. But it still hurt my back and I started cramping really bad. So I call the after hours for my doctor who had a triage nurse call me back. She told me to go on to the hospital just to be check out. They hooked me up the the monitors and asked me a million questions. Lily is doing just fine, she probably doesn't even know that something happened. But I'm in some pain. They said I would be for a few days from tightening up my muscles when I fell. I'm just happy she's ok, no matter how bad I hurt right now. I was cute to hear her on the monitor, she kept moving and kicking it. And we have proof that she likes Luke more, when he started talking to her and rubbing my belly her heart rate starting going so fast! She's going to be a daddy's girl for sure. We go back to the doctors on Tuesday and hope everything is good then too. Well I'm off for a nap! See yall soon

Week 24: She's active!!!!

2010-12-09T16:01:00.000-06:00

Wow this week is been crazy and just getting crazier. I'm in my 24th week and feeling huge. Lily is more active these days and still loves to punch/kick my bladder. I think she believes it's a toy or something Lol. My belly is getting ever bigger and I really need to take a new picture to show everyone. Luckily my mom gave me a bunch of shirts that have been such a huge help. I hate clothes shopping and being pregnant while shopping isn't fun either. You just feel like a whale and it depresses you a little. Anyways I have finished one of my Chemistry finals and have one more on Monday. I can't believe this semester is almost over! I can't wait to just focus of my family and getting things ready for Christmas and Lily's arrival!!! We're making slow but good progress on Lily's room and hope to have everything cleared out and put away by Christmas. That way whatever gifts she gets we can just go ahead and put in her room. I'm still really anxious to get her room finished but I'm finding good ways to keep myself busy most of the time so it doesn't become overwhelming. I think the biggest reason I'm so anxious is because I'm out of work. If I was working it may be a little easier for me to wait. And with me now being in my 6th month I know it will just get harder from here. Well I'm off to study for finals. Wish me luck and I'll try and do a money saving update is a few days!

Week 22 and 23

2010-12-01T21:05:00.000-06:00

So yeah I missed last week, because the holidays are crazy! I've had school, 2 doctor's appointments, and not to mention all the holiday festivities. I'm glad things are starting to calm down, if only a little bit. I only have next week and then finals left of school and then I'm off til next fall. I hate not to go next semester but at the same time I can't see myself focusing well enough to do my best. And I will have Lily half way through the semester and that can make things even harder. She'll be about 6 months old when I go back and I think that'll be just fine. I seem to be doing ok in both classes. I'm still hoping the high markers, but know my english class will probably only be a C (better than failing). So we've had 2 doctor's appointments because we had gone in for another ultrasound and the scheduler messed up or something. I was suppose to be booked on the 2nd floor and didn't know it and the tech in my doctor's office on the 3rd floor was double booked. Then come to find out the 2nd floor was suppose to put me in their schedule and never did. So I have to wait an hour to do the ultrasound and it took another hour to even get a few pictures. Lily was head down, but laying right against my uterus. She still is being her little lady self and had her ankles crossed. But the tech said she could see pretty well even if we couldn't get the picture, and if she's a boy he's doing an amazing job at hiding his parts. So it's a GIRL! lol (like we didn't know that) But we did find out that she weights a pound. A whole pound, I just can't believe she's getting so big and it just going to get bigger. She kicks like crazy but I still can't imagine her being that big. Anyways since it took so long with the ultrasound I missed the doctor before he went to lunch and Luke had to get home and get ready for work himself. So I had to go back a week later (yesterday). Doctor said I'm measuring at 24 weeks and only gained a total of 5lbs so far! Woot!!! He also had to check my cervix because I've been having some really bad cramping, but everything was closed! Closed is good, means I'm not dilated. He also said the cramps were actually Braxton Hix contractions and nothing to worry about. I'm relieved that everything is ok and now I'm just trying to take it easy. Which has not been as easy as I'd hoped. The holidays were so hard on me. I had to do the regular house cleaning plus make pumpkin pies. Then I had 2 places to go. Normally this would be so bad, but then silly me got up early Black Friday and got all our Christmas gifts at Wal-Mart and Petsmart. By the time we got home 2 hours after leaving the house, I was crying as I climbed the stairs. I knew right then I had over done it. I just haven't realized how much I can't do while pregnant. So for Christmas I'm definitely taking it easier and not going to do as much. Which also means cutting out some holiday stuff, but I'll make it up to people and visit them early or later. I just have to think of me and Lily now. Luke is always super worried about us these days too. No carrying anything remotely heavy and lots of rest. He really is getting into the pregnancy thing and it makes me so happy. Now all I need is to start working on Lily's room and getting it set up. This may sound odd but I hate that her room isn't finished. I know I still have 4 months to go, but it just doesn't seem like enough time. I'm going to try and stay busy with other stuff, but I have a feeling I'm going to end up shopping by the end of December. Lets hope Luke can stop me from getting too much Lol. Well I'm off to do homework, see yall later!

Homemade baby wipes

2010-11-20T19:01:00.000-06:00

So as I'm going through some old mommysaver articles when I find one on baby wipes. But it's not just an ordinary article, this is about how to make your own and from the sound of it, it's super easy. Now I don't know how much cheaper it is only because I haven't bought baby wipes before. And I've also heard of using cloth wipes instead of disposable ones. Of course you can get a ton of different opinions and there's no one that is right for everyone. So this might be something for you and maybe not. So here's the recipe:

Homemade Baby Wipes
1 roll of Bounty (or another thick, quality brand) paper towels
2-1/4 cups of water
2 Tbsp. baby bath or shampoo
1 Tbsp. baby oil
Cut the roll of towels in half (an electric knife works well) and place in a container (a large plastic coffee can or a Rubbermaid container works well). Mix all liquid ingredients together and pour over top of the towels. When ready to use, remove the cardboard center and pull the towels from the middle. There you go: Baby wipes, fast, inexpensive and easy!

I'm going to try this at least once and weight the cost and time to see if it really is a good alternative. Let me know if you've used this idea or what your thoughts are about it.

Starting in Dec my husband and I are going to try using disposable plates and cups to see how much we can save. We got the idea from a neighbor who does it to cut costs and bugs. We'll still use bowls, pots, pans, and silverware. How hope is that we will do less dishes, saving on water and electricity from the dishwasher. I'll keep you updated on how it goes little by little. And with the final results in mid-Jan.

21 weeks: playing soccer

2010-11-18T23:59:00.000-06:00

Wow this week seems to have flown by and been crazy. Not that anything big has happen, but I'm just drained. Lily has learned how to kick and she loves to kick my bladder. Lol Luckily I haven't peed myself, but she sure is trying to make me! Oh and I've been feeling her get the hiccups. It's such a crazy weird, wonderful feeling, but she seems to be like her daddy and hates them. If she gets them and it aggravates her she kicks really hard, straight down. Ouch! I've also finally found what my food craving is....pound cake! I thought about it maybe a week ago and it hit me that's what I've been wanting for weeks! So since I don't have the pans or recipe to make it I had to get store bought. It may not be as good as homemade, but it did the trick! Now I just have to hold back on eating like a full cake a day. Lol Pregnancy really is weird. No one tells you how much your body is going to change on you. And I don't think you really understand until it happens to you. This has been such a crazy year and it just seems to get crazier the farther this pregnancy goes. I've really excited to meet Lily and start our lives with her, but at the same time it scares me beyond reason. I mean I've been around plenty of babies, but usually if the baby gets too fussy I hand them off. Now I'm going to be the one people hand the baby back to, I'll be responsible for everything about another person. That's SCARY! Right? Sorry just a little freak out moment, I have a lot of those recently. So anyways we are currently cleaning the house and getting it ready to add baby stuff. And this project is hard. So far we haven't even made it out of our kitchen! We have to organize and clean everything. Then we'll move on to the next room leaving the baby's for last. This way by the time our baby shower gets here we'll have plenty of space to add the new stuff without stressing. I'm still going to school during all of this which slows down the progress, but I've only got a few more weeks then I'm out of school til next fall. Hopefully I'll be in the nursing program then! *cross fingers* And I've also been thinking of adding money saving tips as an extra blog once a week or so. What do you think? I've been doing a ton of research the past year really on how to save and what to save on. I've even had help from friends of mine on where to look. There's this great website called mommysavers. They have a ton of articles and tips for moms or dads really. I thought it would be a great way to help others out if they need it and to see if others have tried the ideas I would like to. I'll try it within the next week and go from there. It may not be a weekly blog, but maybe every so often or something.

Well we go back to the doctor next week to see our little Lily again! Hopefully she'll be more cooperative this time. But she is Luke's and my child so we'll see. Lol Have a great week!

Free photo cards from Shutterfly!!

2010-11-16T14:24:00.002-06:00

A friend recently turned me on to Shutterfly.com. And so far I am loving it. It's a site that's great for anything picture related! You can get prints, make a photo book, photo calendar, or even photo cards! Shutterfly has an amazing selection and more amazing prices. And with the holidays coming up what could be better. We thought we would wait til next year to order birth announcements for Lily, but now we're thinking of doing Christmas cards.We found some that we adore and the great part is you can pick cards that use anywhere from 1-6 pictures. So if you have a large family each person can have a picture! My friend has ordered from them and says it's super easy and the pictures come out great. Here are some Christmas cards we really like! You won't know which one we pick until you get it in the mail! So what do you think?

And Shutterfly has this great this going on right now, if you post a blog about their site you can get 50 free photo christmas cards! Woot!

See you all tomorrow for my regular weekly update!

20 weeks

2010-11-10T17:57:00.000-06:00

Well today marks the halfway point in our pregnancy journey. And I must say I feel more and more pregnant as I go. My stomach is huge or at least I feel that way. And little Lily is moving a lot more these days, especially when Luke is around. She just does flips when Luke reads to her or is even just around. It's so funny, but I can already tell she's going to be a daddy's girl! Luke is now really excited about having a girl. I knew he would get there, but it did worry me that he would want a boy too much. But now he's happier finding out we're having a girl than a boy. So we went and did our baby registries this week and to me it was fun, but tiring. I never really thought about how much one little baby needs. And they need a lot of stuff! In preparation for all this baby stuff we're now cleaning and getting rid of stuff. But we're also getting some stuff for us too. Luke is buying a new tv tonight and I can't wait! We've had a 32" projection tv for years now and we've been saving for a flat screen. So since Luke works at Best Buy, we're using his discount to finally get a 46"!! We still have to sell the old one, but I just could wait any longer to buy a new one. Luke is so happy, he's been asking for this tv for over a year now!

And Luke is still working 2 jobs and it still sucks. He's starting to get a little down over working so much, but we both know it's for the best. I try to have as much family time as I can with him and try to leave the shopping and stuff for when he's at work. But it's still hard to get time with him, like this week. I have class but while I'm in class he's leaving for work, ugh. So we only have the hour or so before I leave to be with each other. Although we did find out today that he will probably have off both Thanksgiving and Christmas Day from both jobs! So that means family time!! Even if it is a holiday, I'm glad we get to spend it together, because last year I was by myself. Well I mean I still went to family events but went alone and came home alone. And that's just sad. So spending the holidays with him will be so much better!

Here's so pictures from last week, so 19 weeks! Enjoy

My big belly

Lily's face

Lily's little foot

It's a GIRL!

2010-11-02T19:07:00.000-05:00

Well Monday we went to the doctor and found out we're having a little girl! I really couldn't be happier! Luke was a little disappointed but now that the shock has warn off he's excited too. And of course so is the rest of the family! I just can't believe I'm having a little girl!! It's the most amazing feeling to know that this little girl is growing inside me. Now she was being not only difficult but also modest during the ultrasound so we have to go back in 3 weeks. The tech wasn't able to get all of the pictures that she needed and since Lily was wouldn't open her legs more we're only 85% sure it's a girl. But that's enough for us! We did get pictures of her face, which looks kind of alien like (it's very skeletal right now) and we got her feet which are so tiny. As soon as I can take some good photos of the pics then I'll add some for everyone to see! And also my first belly picture. I was worried no one would be able to tell that my belly was getting bigger so I help off on taking belly pics. But apparently you can really tell. Also at my appointment Monday I found out I've only gained a pound since I got pregnant!! Woot They also took blood for testing to check for any problems the baby could have. I'm not too worried but I'd be lying if I said I didn't worry at all. It's just sad because I'm part of an online group with a bunch of other women all pregnant and due in March as well. Well a couple have gotten bad results and it's so sad and just makes me worry some. I mean 2 women have gone to their 20 week dr appointment only to find out that the baby has no heartbeat. I mean how horrible. So I'm not taking this for granted at all. I am treasuring every moment and making sure that I talk to my baby as often as possible.

Ok so anyways baby is moving like crazy now. She loves apple juice and chocolate! But I really don't feel her too much unless I'm sitting down and then it feels like popcorn popping in my belly or something like that. It really is a crazy but cool feeling. And Jaina is finally starting to cuddle up to my belly a little, she even licks it sometimes which I think is really cute. I'm still going to school and doing good for the most part, although I do have to dropout of my Theater class. I missed one assignment and the teacher grades really weird. So now I have no chance of passes so I figured dropping the class is the best idea. And other than school all I do is clean the house. Which seems to never actually be clean. How is that? And the farther along in the pregnancy I get the more I want to clean.

Oh and we're still not through with these nasty bed bugs. They haven't gotten worse or anything but we just can't seem to get rid of them. And now I found 2 in the living room. So now the bug guy is using a new, more powerful spray that should work better. Also the apartment manager is having our floors and furniture cleaned! Woot! That should help get rid of any dead bugs or eggs in the fabrics. I'm just so ready for this to be over. It's not that they're bad, but they're nasty and gross. And they make me feel nasty and gross.

So Luke is still working 2 jobs and it's really starting to get to me now. It's been about a month and it's hard being here by myself so much. It would be easier if I had friends to hang out with but they've all moved away. And the others work and have families too. So how do I meet people when I don't work and don't go to church? It seems to be the only places to meet people. Oh well we'll make do I guess. See yall next week

18 weeks: resting

2010-10-28T19:48:00.000-05:00

Well this has been quite a week. We're still battling the bed bugs, but I think we finally got rid of them. The bug guy is coming tomorrow to do another fogging and hopefully that will get rid of the last of them. This really has been one hell of an ordeal. I hope no one else has to go through this and that people are starting to be proactive to protect their homes. It really is crazy how long it takes to get rid of these things and we caught them immediately. Well we've also been crazy busy with school and work. I've been doing a ton a homework, but it's worth it. I'm doing pretty well and think I will fully pass this semester. But I don't know if I'm going back next semester. I just think it may be too much with the baby due in March and all. But we'll just have to see. And I can still take the nursing exam and if I get accepted can just start up again next fall. So on to today, I'm currently on temporary bed rest because yesterday I was having contractions all day. The doctor isn't too worried and thinks they are probably Braxton Hex, false contractions, but still wants to be safe. So I'm to take it easy for a while and I go see him on Monday anyways so it shouldn't be bad. And the super good news is we find out the baby's gender Monday!!!! I can't wait to see if it's a boy or girl. Luke still says it's a boy and I'm again undecided what to think. We're taking our moms to dinner to tell them what the baby is. They aren't too happy about having to wait all day, but I think it's kinda funny to watch them squirm too! Lol

So I kind of forgot the past few weeks to tell my symptoms, sorry about that. Well I'm sleeping better, when I get time, and the nausea isn't as bad all the time. But I've been getting terrible heartburn, but that comes with this huge stomach that has appeared. I've already bought new pants and I have to get more shirts like really soon. I didn't realize how big I had gotten until last weekend. My friend got married and while trying on shirts I found out that I no longer fit into the 3 I thought I did. So Luke went shopping with me and we got a really cute purple maternity shirt! And the really great part is I should be able to wear it throughout the rest of the pregnancy. But I hated having to spend $30 on a shirt I will only wear a few more months. So I'm going to Goodwill soon. I don't always like to shop there because I never find anything, but I can't justify spending 100s of dollars on clothes that I won't wear after the baby is born. I mean yes there will be a short time after that I probably will, but once my belly is gone the clothes will look really weird on me. So we'll see what I can find and I'll post belly pictures soon. I really can't believe I'm already so big. Well I'm see yall next week!!

Bittersweet day

2010-10-25T17:33:00.000-05:00

Well yesterday was my original due date. It's so sad to think that I could be holding my baby right now. Yet in a way I wasn't as sad since I've been given a second chance and awaiting the arrival of our new baby. I feel lucky for getting pregnant again, but part of me is still mad that my first baby was taken from me. But all I can do is go forward and be greatful for what I have. And just hope I can show this baby how special he/she is and how happy I am to have him/her.

17 weeks: finally home

2010-10-21T15:48:00.000-05:00

So after spending most of the week at my mom's, we're finally home. It took them longer than we thought to fog the house for bed bugs. They're still dying off, but at least we can stay in our own beds now! But we still have a week or so til they are "officially" gone. Just because it can take that long for all the eggs to hatch and so forth. The bug guy has been really nice and extra helpful through this whole process, he even gave me his cell number so I can call for anything. But in the mean time I have more than a ton of house work that has to be done. All our clothes, sheets, pillows, and even curtains have to be either washed or dried properly. And I vacuum everyday for the next week or so. It's tiring, but I really don't want to have these things ever again! Luke has been really helpful, well as much as he can. He still works everyday during the week, but we have morning together. He's starting to get a little more tired, but insists on working both jobs as long as he can. And it's not as bad as some people have it, at least he only works one job a day.

The baby seems to be doing really good. I'm starting to get a lot more heartburn though, probably from my stomach getting so much bigger. And I must say it's actually surprising me how much my belly is growing. I'm already overweight so I thought I would be far along til I even felt really pregnant, but nope. I've already bought new pants and I only have a handful of shirts that still fit. For the most part my stomach is just rounding out and getting a little harder. It'll be interesting to see how big I really get. Also we've been listening to the baby's heart using the fetal doppler and it's getting weird and cool. First the baby doesn't like the doppler so it'll kick and move away from it which is funny and cool. But the weird thing is we're getting 2 different heartbeats. Now I'm not saying that I think I'm having twins, but we have questioned it. But it's most likely the angles I'm getting. We'll find out beginning of November though, and we'll also find out if it's a boy or girl! We are so excited and so ready for this. I really want to start shopping for baby stuff! I didn't think it would be as had as it has been to find gender neutral stuff. So now we're just doing a count down til we find out and I'm getting very anxious. Luke was able to get off that day so we can spend it together and then with our moms so we can tell them. They aren't happy with me though because I'm making them wait til Luke's mom gets off work. I though it would be cute to have a little gift thing they can open. They would rather just get a phone call, but no I'm being mean. Lol Well see yall next week!

16 weeks: I'm so tired

2010-10-12T21:29:00.000-05:00

Well this is a day early but I won't have access to a computer for about 2 days so I thought I'd just update now. Nothing big with baby with week. I'm still feeling little kicks rarely and I hope to feel more soon. And I've been getting a lot more heartburn lately, so baby might have some hair when it's born. Lol If you don't understand that, it's a old wives tale that says if your are getting a lot of heartburn during pregnancy then your baby will come out with a head full of hair. And to go along with the heartburn is not wanting to eat. I get hungry but not as often and I can't really find anything that tastes good. Although I can eat a ton of mini pizzas and pulled pork. Don't know what's up with that.

So school is school. But I had to miss this past Mon. because we discovered Sunday that we could have bed bugs. Not bad by any means, but we found so bugs on and around Jaina's bed. We looked them up and they looked just like bed bugs. Needless to say I was freaked, so the whole family moved into the guest bedroom. Then we had the bug guy come out and he confirmed it was bed bugs. He said we caught it super early because they usually get to the bed quick. So there's nothing to worry about and they are coming tomorrow, Wed., to fog the apartment. We could come back later that night, but with me being pregnant he suggested staying somewhere for the night. So it's off to my mom's. And after we get back we'll have a lot of cleaning to do. The fog is suppose to be pet and child friendly but he suggested we might want to wipe stuff down. And I will want to vacuum all the creepy things up. I'm glad I will be on fall break from classes next week!

Luke's still working a ton. I can't say that I like him being gone so much. We're just trying to get use to it though. I mean he's always just had part time jobs and with full time, he's gone twice as often. But the pay is better and the benefits will be nice too.

So here's what I'm asking everyone, it's getting close to finding out what baby Pergler's gender is. Do you have any ideas for how we should tell friends and family. Our parents will be told by phone call probably, but I prefer something fun and cute. So let me know what you come up with! Thanks all and see ya next week

15 weeks: first little kick

2010-10-06T18:14:00.000-05:00

This is a little video of baby's heartbeat. We took it last week so our family could here. We're getting the heartbeat quicker when we use the doppler. And sometimes the baby with kick at it. It's so amazing to be able to hear the heart whenever we want.

Well I've made it through another week. It's been slow but busy. I know that's confusing but I really haven't done much except school and home. The baby seems to be doing well and has started up with the heartburn again. And I got a new tums/antacids and they suck. Lol I've started to get the cramps and little pains again. It's probably from the muscles pulling away from the bone and just growing, but they can really hurt. The best thing about this week is the baby kick! It was last night and I was just sitting at the computer and the baby kick. I had thought I felt something earlier, but wasn't sure. But with this kick there was no doubting what it was! I just hope it happens again soon.

So I'm still going to classes and they're still going pretty good. Although it is starting to get harder to motivate myself to do some of the work. I just want to lay around or do other things. But somehow I always seem to get the work done. Maybe if I can start getting more sleep that would help?

And Luke's job is still going great. He's actually working in the jail now but will be shadowing someone for about a week or two. He really loves it and I am getting use to the hours. He works from 2-11pm. So we can have mornings together and he gets home in time to sleep beside me. He's still going to work at Best Buy on his 2 days off a week and see how that goes. He did say that if we can live off his jail income alone then he will consider leaving Best Buy when the baby is here or almost here. So that's still up in the air. So life is still going good for now.

14 Weeks: Second Trimester!!!

2010-10-01T21:12:00.000-05:00

Sorry for the late post, I kinda forgot about it then the site wouldn't let me on. But anyways I am now officially in my 2nd trimester! Now this is amazing for many many reasons. First, the chances of miscarriage almost disappear! Most of the harder pregnancy symptoms will be easing up and the baby will be getting bigger, which means I will be too. I'm so excited to be here, I knew it was possible but I still had that thought in the back of my mind about losing this baby. And to make it here is such a relief! I did go to the doctor this week and he said the baby is sounding really good and even though I haven't gained any weight (Woot!) it won't hurt the baby in anyway. I'll go back in about 5 weeks, a long time I know, but this way we can get all my tests done and find out what this baby is (boy or girl). If you haven't been pregnant that you don't know, but when you get to your second trimester you have a bunch of tests done. The first set at the beginning, which is 2 blood tests to check for the possibility of birth defect and stuff. Then another at the end, this one tests for diabetes which can be brought on by pregnancy and usually goes away shortly after the baby is born. Now that my teaching lesson is done, I'll be getting the first one of course but I hate giving blood. It hurts really bad when the stick me with that needle. I just hate it. But the 2 good news is that Luke will be there with me and we find out if we're having a Caleb or Lily! I really can't wait. I hate that I have to wait so long but the doctor said that his policy is that I have to be about 19 weeks. So for a while it'll be just updates on me.

Well school is in full swing, I'm doing pretty well but sometimes I find it hard to get up and do the work. All I want to do is rest and sleep. But I always get it done one way or another. And I seem to be doing pretty well for now. Luke started his new job at the jail on Monday and so far likes it. He's only been doing the training but that can still give a look into what he'll be doing. Although he didn't like today too much, he had to get maced. That's just one of the things he has to do so he can carry the mace with him at work. He said it really really hurt and I got a little feel of it by accident. There was some of the residue left on him shirt or skin and it wiped onto me and got in my eyes. Now I didn't get the full effects by far but it was very uncomfortable and I wouldn't recommend doing it. But he will start shadowing someone on Monday and that'll last a week or two. He's also staying at Best Buy part time. He's planning on working there on his days off so he won't get a weekend but maybe it'll be easier than him working 13-14 hour days. He said he'll just try it out for a while and if it doesn't work out he'll leave Best Buy. Part of me hopes it works so that we can have to extra money to put into savings but the other part hopes it doesn't so he'll be home a little more and have weekends to spend with me! I know we can make it work, I just hate the fact that we have to spend so much time apart.

Well it's late and I need some sleep. I'll try and update earlier next week. Bye all

13 weeks: almost for my next trimester

2010-09-22T21:36:00.000-05:00

Well here we are another week past. It's been a little harder this week. I've been having more problems with morning sickness, sleeping, and aches. I've been handling them pretty well with the help of Luke but unfortunately I did miss my class today because I just felt too sick. Hopefully with me starting my 2nd trimester next week things will calm down a little bit. Also I have found that little man/girl likes sweets, I've been craving them more and more. Oh and I don't care for hamburger meat, it makes me so very sick. It hasn't been as bad today but it does suck when one of your husbands favorite food is spaghetti. Lol! So on to school, it's been going really well. I've kept up with all my work and it has worked out pretty well. Chemistry is more interesting than I thought and the lab is fun. So far the labs have been easy.

Luke is working a bunch this week and starts his new job on Monday. He is very excited, more about the more money he'll be making than anything. Although we still don't know what shift he'll be working so that sucks. We hope they'll tell him early next week so we can do some more baby planning stuff. You'd never think you'd have so many little things to plan. I figured it was go to the hospital and have a baby. But no, you have to plan for who takes you if this happens, you stays with you, who calls who. Wow so many decisions, oh and who will take care of the animals while I'm gone. It seems like so much has to be decided even if I know we have time, I still feel rushed. But maybe I can make a list of things and do them slowly! Hey there's an idea. And yes that just now came to me Lol. Well it's late and I need to finish some homework and go to bed. Night all!

12 weeks Woot Woot

2010-09-15T17:27:00.000-05:00

Well today marks an amazing point in the pregnancy. The possibility of miscarriage goes down dramatically! And yes that has been a worry of ours, but I think it is to a lot of people. But really other than that this week has been really boring. Still getting the same symptoms and my belly is still getting bigger. I've already had to go and buy maternity pants, and they are uber comfy. We did get a fetal doppler this week, so Luke can hear the baby's heartbeat. He really liked hearing and now I use it everyday. The heart rate has been between 120-145. Which is low so it very well may be a boy! But we still have a while until we find out, the waiting is driving me crazy. Oh and we were given a white changing table from a neighbor/friend. We weren't planning on buying one because I've heard they're not really necessary but since it was given, we'll use it!

Well school is going good and Luke's job is as well. Sorry for such a sort update, but it really has been a boring week. lol

11 Weeks: Heard Heartbeat

2010-09-08T12:14:00.000-05:00

So yesterday I went to the doctor and finally got to hear that amazing sound. My baby's heartbeat!!! I don't know how fast it was but the nurse said it sounded really good! And I go back in 3 weeks to hear it again! I'm just so over joyed that our baby is doing so well. Unfortunately Luke couldn't be there because he was doing a psychology exam for his new job and he might now be able to make the next one either. So we did decide to go ahead and buy a fetal doppler. And Luke will definitely be there when we find out the baby's sex, even if I have to reschedule the appointment. I really want him to be there and so does he. It was sad because the day before my appointment Luke was very depressed that he couldn't be there. But it is kinda sweet to.

And Luke's new job is looking good so far. He starts on the 27th and will work days for a week or two for training and then we'll know his real schedule. And this really came at a good time because where he was getting a ton of hours at Best Buy, now they have cut him down to only about 3 days a week. But he still wants to keep working there for all the great discounts Lol.

And school is going really good. Already finished the first week and it seems like I can really do this. Although today kinda sucked. I woke up feeling horrible and was fighting to keep food down, but I sucked it up and went off to class. But after I got there I spent 30 mins looking for a parking spot. I finally got too emotional and decided to come home. Hopefully I didn't miss anything too important or maybe someone will let me see there notes. So that's it for this week, I think! Lol

10 weeks and a rough week

2010-09-02T23:15:00.000-05:00

I'm super excited about making it to 10 weeks. I'm so close to my second trimester that I'm giddy! We go to the doctor on Tuesday and should hear the baby's heartbeat!!!!! I've been debating whether to get a fetal doppler or not. I've found them for around $40 but have gotten mixed responses about getting one. The upside would be a could hear the baby, but it could also get me really scared. Sometimes it is hard to find the baby's heartbeat because the baby is moving, so mom's start worrying for no reason. I'll think about it for another week and if Luke is ok with getting one then I will. Now as for symptoms, it's been a pretty good week. One or two morning sickness points, very little to no heartburn, and no food cravings. I'm still not sleeping great, but we're finding ways to help with that. But I have had a few headaches, but nothing like the migraines some women get. And weirdest of all, my stomach is getting tighter. Now this may not sound weird to you, but let it happen to your body, it's crazy and I can't stop touching it Lol.

My week has started getting rough on Monday with allergies, again nothing wrong with it except I can't take any medications. I finally talked to my doctor yesterday and he said I could have sudafed, it's helped and I hope this will end soon. Now if that wasn't enough, I had an ingrown toe nail removed on Tuesday. Last time I had one removed I wasn't in too much pain. This time, it hurts! All of this combined with the first week of classes. I go on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Thursdays. I'm happy to be going back, but if you have ever gone to the first week at a college you know it is like a mad house. No parking spaces and rude people. I spent 15 mins today looking for a parking spot and most of that time was spent stuck in one spot because a jerk wouldn't let me out. I do like my classes though. I'm looking forward to Chemistry only because it seems like something that I'll like. The one good thing about this week is between not being hungry (from the allergies and toe pain) and all the walking on campus, I've lost 3.5 lbs! I had only gained 1.5 since being pregnant and losing a little weight is ok for me. I hope that this is a good sign that maybe I can gain very little weight throughout the pregnancy!

But the best news this week is that Luke not only got an interview at the jail (finally) but he got the job!!!! All he has to do now is pass a drug test, psych test, and physical and he'll start on Sept. 27! The job is great for us! The pay is awesome, he gets benefits, and job security. I'm super proud of him and he is really excited. He's really been worried about providing for us and now it's a huge weight off his shoulders. So this week has been crazy busy and so far next week probably will be to. So see ya then! xoxo

Week 9: OMG will I ever sleep

2010-08-25T15:50:00.000-05:00

So today is the start of our 3rd months! This week has been hard and it seems to get harder with every day or so. I've started getting a lot of morning sickness. But luckily have been able to stop from getting sick by eating cereal first thing in the morning. But I stay tired all day. I don't get much sleep at night because I can't get comfy and then I get up every couple of hours to pee. It sucks. And during the day I just can't fall asleep. This is all normal but I hate it. Oh and I've started getting headaches. They're not too bad but they are annoying. I'm getting through it all thanks to Luke being so helpful and understanding with everything. But poor boy I go off on him for no reasons and I hate it (all these crazy hormones).

Luke is still working at Best Buy and he finally got a call about the jail job. He has an interview next week and I think he'll do great! We just have to find his high school diploma. Apparently he doesn't have it and his mom doesn't think she does. So I looked into getting it from the school system and it can take about 2 weeks! We don't have a week. So I'm hoping that his mom just has it tucked away somewhere! (Please! Please! Please! Please!) But he loves working and is going to try and work both jobs if he can. That means he won't be here as much but it should make things easier financially for us. I'll just have to see how long he lasts.

And I start college next week! yay! I hated buying books and silly me ended up buying 1 book twice. Lol but I did save a ton of money by getting my books off these college websites and using the local textbook brokers. I think I saved about $150! I'm excited to go back but I know I'll be super busy which won't be fun.

Oh and really cool news, we got new couches. We have been looking for something newer and in better shape than the ones we have now. And luckily a guy posted these nice green couch and loveseat on craigslist for only $150. He was even willing to deliver them for us! They are really nice and there's very little wear on them. They're firm and I love them. We did decide to keep our current loveseat so we can have a "U" shape and it makes extra seating for when everyone comes to see the baby. So it looks like things are really going good for us and I hope everyone else as well. I just hope this keeps up, I just feel like it's been so long since we've had good luck. Well see ya next week!

8 weeks: heartburn

2010-08-18T13:31:00.000-05:00

So today I am 8 weeks along!! This past week hasn't been too bad, except for the heartburn. I knew heartburn was part of pregnancy but my goodness. I never thought heartburn could ever feel this bad. The other day I was taking a tums every hour. It's been better during the day but starting in the late afternoon and evening, the heartburn is almost unbearable. It even keeps me up a night, which doesn't help the fact that I'm already having trouble sleeping. Almost all pregnant women have problems sleeping, which I knew, and I knew that you can sometimes have bad dreams. But I never thought I'd have this many bad dreams and how weird they could be. I was also hoping they'd come later if at all. So be warned, nightmares can come with pregnancy. Also my nausea has gotten a little worse but luckily I haven't gotten sick so it's not too bad. And Luke makes me something to eat every morning so it helps settle my stomach :) I've also started getting a few headaches but they're not too bad. I'm still getting cramps but the doctors not worried so all I can do is try and relax.

Lucas and I went to BabiesRUs this weekend to look at the baby stuff we would need. And OMG. I knew babies needed alot but I guess I never really looked at everything! But luckily we have some family members who are giving us some of there old baby stuff from there kids. Even if we have to give it back or something, it's so sweet to have family that's here for us and wanting to help. My grandparents are so excited it's cute. My grandfather really wants us to have a little girl and it's so funny, he's already talking about buying a bike and her riding it. lol

Well other than that Luke has started a new job at Best Buy and he loves it. He's getting a lot of hours right now and I hope it stays that way. Unfortunately I still haven't found a job but I'm still looking and hoping. But I did get good news about college. They undated our financial status and also counted the baby so I got more aid and can go this Fall! I'm so excited. I start on the 23rd and can't wait to finally get my degree! Well that's all for now

7 weeks and so tired

2010-08-12T17:58:00.000-05:00

So yesterday I hit 7 weeks. It's so exciting, but I'm always tired. I'm having quite a few pregnancy symptoms, including nausea, fatigue, digestion issues, increased sense of smell, moodiness (not too bad), trouble sleeping, muscle aches....It's been crazy how much my body is changing in such a short amount of time.

I did get a little worried yesterday morning because I was spotting a little bit, but the doctor said with my blood work and ultrasound he feels very confident about this pregnancy so I should just take it easy for a day or so. And call if the spotting gets worse or is bright red. Neither happened which is good! I'm feeling better about this pregnancy but that doesn't mean I'm not worried. I will probably stay worried until the end but we'll just see.

Lucas and I are also starting to look at baby names, we like Caleb for a boy and Lily for a girl, but we still need middle names. So we'll keep looking at both gender names until we find out what we're having! I'll probably even have to ask friends and family for advice once we know what we're having. We have a lot of names we really like.

Well Jaina can tell that something is different with me. She has been more attached to Luke lately and really doesn't want me. I thought it was just her being moody but my mom said dogs can sense something's different. Which would make sense to me. So I'm trying to love on her and let her know I still love her. But it does worry both of us for when we bring the baby home. I know that we have to introduce them as soon as we get home, but I just wonder if Jaina will like the baby or if she's feel she's being replaced or something. I just love her and don't want her to get upset over us having a baby, although it won't stop us either. I guess the only thing to do it wait and see.

Oh and I have been reading a lot of article on freezing meals. I've done some freezing, but mostly with fruit or things like that. But these articles are about making meals a bunch of meals one day then freezing them for later on. This is great because when the baby comes I doubt I'll want to spend a bunch of time in the kitchen making a meal, so if I already had it made that would awesome. There's even recipes for freezing smoothies which would be cool for me to get more fruits and veggies into my diet. I'll try it soon and let you know how it turns out!

1st doctor appointment and 1st ultrasound

2010-08-09T16:05:00.000-05:00

Day I'm so giddy it's crazy. I had to wake up at 7am, which wasn't great, so I could make it downtown in time for our appointment. I wasn't feeling great and wasn't able to eat anything because it all made me feel sick. But we got there and they did an exam and blood work. And said so far everything looks great. Then the doctor said he could get me in for an ultrasound today!!! So we went back and got to see our little baby's heartbeat! If you haven't experienced it I really can't put it all into words. It's amazing to see that your baby is alive and growing! The baby is in the right place and looking great! Which has taken so much off my shoulders. Lucas and I were so anxious last night we really didn't get much sleep. And now it was worth it because we saw our baby! He is so excited and just smiling ear to ear all day!

You may not be able to tell in the picture, but that's the baby. The white oval shape at the top of the black circle is the baby! I go back in about a month, but won't have another ultrasound until I'm about 18 weeks, and that's just to see what the baby's gender is! I'll keep post of course to keep everyone up to date!

midnight ER visit

2010-08-07T15:35:00.000-05:00

Well last night I ended up in the ER at like 2am. Lucas and I were getting ready for bed and I noticed a little spotting. Well it got a little worse so we decided to drive to Baptist just to be sure everything was ok. We were only there for a little over 3 hours (which is so much better than Hendersonville's ER). Anyways the doctor did a sonogram and saw the baby's yolk sack in the uterus which is a great sign. He didn't see the baby or a heartbeat because this early it can only be seen on a vaginal ultrasound. He looked at my blood counts and everything and it all looked good. So he put me on bed rest til I see the doctor, which lucky is Monday morning! I'm really happy that everything is ok and the baby appears to be in the right place. I will have to wait til my ultrasound to find out 100% but with everything looking so good I'm feeling alot better. And the doctor was sweet enough to print out the picture for us too. So now it's just time to wait for Monday!

I made it to 6 weeks!!!

2010-08-03T23:44:00.000-05:00

Today was so emotional. I made it to 6 weeks! For those you haven't read or don't know, I had a miscarriage the day before I hit 6 weeks. So hitting this small milestone means so much to us. I'm still worried, but feeling a little better. Luke is excited to and we're thinking this may be it! I still haven't been able to get a doctor's appointment because I haven't gotten my insurance card yet. But the doctor's office said they would get me in immediately after I got the card. I can't wait to go see the doctor and possibly have an ultrasound. I'm still having tons of symptoms and getting more. One is a craving of mexican food, mainly quesadillas. I'm cramping still which doesn't make me feel great, but according to a nurse and others it's normal and nothing to worry about. But really I'm going to worry until it stops or the doctor tells me I'm ok. I have decided to see my aunt's doctor in Nashville, who can deliver me at Baptist Hospital. After looking into all the Nashville Hospitals I liked Baptist's maternity the best. I've known people to deliver there so I'm not worried about that at all. I know it's early to be talking about that but it's a decision I've made so I'm sharing. It's getting hard not to tell family and friends, but I still feel that it's the best til we see the doctor. And we'll tell them soon enough.

Luke has had to pull his college application because we just couldn't get the money. But we're not giving up. He is going to reapply next year when he has a job and hopefully lowered his credit card bill. It's not a high bill but it will look better for credit if it's as low as possible. He's bummed that he's hit yet another road block but he's thinking positive. I'm also finishing up financial aid stuff and hope to get a little more to help finish paying for my schooling as well. As of right now I have to pay about $1,000 or so. I was able to call and they are going to recalculate my financial aid based off of our new circumstances. So I hope they will at least cover the tuition. It would suck to have to pay for all the books but it's better than getting no help. I am worried about he spring semester because the baby will be due in March and if I'm in classes it may cause a problem. But I'll cross that bridge when we get to it.

Almost 5 weeks

2010-07-26T18:20:00.000-05:00

I am still on cloud 9! I had a dr's appointment today but it had to be canceled due to some problems at the office. So now I have to wait til tomorrow to even find out when I can reschedule. But I'm still doing good and loving every second of this. Don't really care for the nausea but so far that's all it is so I'll deal with it. We told our mom's this weekend and they are both very excited! We will tell the rest of the family after our ultrasound and then everyone else at around 12 weeks. I think people will understand why we decided to wait.

I also had a job interview today that I felt went really well! It's for a pharmacy company in Nashville and is full time with benefits!!! Unfortunately I won't hear anything for up to 4 weeks. Also Luke has a job interview tonight with Best Buy. It's not the jail but at least it could be money coming in and a job to tide him over until the jail calls. I think he'll do great!

4 weeks

2010-07-21T15:39:00.000-05:00

So I went to the doctor yesterday and she said that I am pregnant, but they can't give my insurance yet because the test didn't come up positive in the time. So I'm going back next week to take another test and hopefully get insurance so I can go to the doctor. And as for symptoms, I've had heart burn for a week or so. I originally thought it was just because I was eating chips and salsa but it's still here. I'm moody and a little nauseous but not too bad. But we'll see how the rest of the week goes.

And an update on school. I haven't heard anything yet but look has unfortunately been denied for a lower tuition and student loan. So we're waiting to see what to do next. His adviser may be able to provide some more help, or we may ask a family member to cosign for his loan. We're not happy about it but praying that something good happens soon.

Also I have an interview on Monday! So wish me luck!!!

So 2nd of TTC = BFP!!!!

2010-07-20T08:43:00.000-05:00

AAHHH So yeah I woke up this morning to watch my nephew and decided that it's only the day before my period is suppose to start, so why not take a pregnancy test to see. At first it looked negative because I was so tired, but I kept telling myself that I saw something. Well I came back after I was really awake and it was positive!!! I'm excited, but waiting to get really excited until we know everything is okay. I'll take another test in a few hours and then call the doctor. I'm so giggly right now it's crazy! I can't wait to tell of family and hope they understand us not telling them right away. We'll tell them after the first ultrasound and then we'll tell everyone after the first trimester so around Sept. So that's it for today, I can't concentrate long enough to type and Elijah wants attention!!!

A few new things

2010-07-11T17:06:00.000-05:00

So Lucas and I are still trying to get pregnant and find new jobs. He took the corrections officer test a couple of weeks ago and we got the results on Friday! He got a perfect score and is #1 on the roster! That's awesome and means he'll be the first one called for an interview or job! We are just hoping it happens sooner rather than later. But we are ok for at least the next few months, thanks to my penny pinching all these months. I am still applying for jobs but don't have any prospects as of now.

Also Lucas has not only been accepted to Full Sail but has gotten all but $2,500 taken care of with financial aid and loans! This is really good and we hope to get the rest covered next week, so keep your fingers crossed if you will. I have not heard anything about my financial aid yet but I should hear something no later than the end of July. It looks like some things are going good for us!!!

And of course baby news! We are not pregnant yet but I will be testing again in about 2 weeks so we'll see! I do know now why I was so late last month, stress. I was stressed about not only trying to get pregnant but also about jobs, school, etc. So hopefully I can stay calmer this month.

No go this time

2010-06-23T19:44:00.003-05:00

Well it was no point in testing yesterday. I got a BFN and I started AF today. I'm really bummed and feeling a bit depressed today. I know it's only the first month, but with me being 5 days late it just makes it harder. The universe it just cruel. But I'll be better later. Now to eat oreos and veg on the couch.

No positive but no aunt flow either..

2010-06-21T16:19:00.002-05:00

Well I took the pregnancy test, well actually like 3 over the past week, and all came up negative. I was really bummed because I thought it would be so fun to tell Luke he was going to be a daddy on Father's Day. He was a little bummed out about the news but took it well. But the only problem is I haven't started my period either. So I talked to some people online who are also trying to conceive and they all said just test throughout the next week and see what happens. It might just take a little while longer to show up on a test. So it's now another waiting game to see what happens. I have rarely been late for a period ever and even then it was only a day. I'm now a day 3 and it bothers me not knowing. I'm going to test again tomorrow morning, as soon as I wake up. So we'll see!

Great birthday!

2010-06-10T16:59:00.000-05:00

Well Tuesday I celebrated my 22nd birthday! It was actually one of the best birthdays I've had in a long time. Luke got me 2 Disney dvds, Sleeping Beauty and Alice in Wonderland (original). Both are most favorites so I was so happy. We got the watch Elijah that morning and he is just so adorable. He's 2 now and has an attitude just like his momma. At first Jaina didn't really take to him, but they ended up playing together and having a great time. It was really cute because Jaina loves to be chased and Elijah loves to run! So they just ran around for a while, laughing, and having fun. Later we went to lunch with my grandparents, which is a nice little tradition that has started forming the past couple of years. They just take me to lunch and we talk. I left there and spent a few minutes with my mom, then it was back home to play Wii with the hubby. He even let me win at golf lol. Over all a really nice and happy day!

And for those of you who are keeping up with our baby stuff, we test next week to see if we get a BFP (big fat positive)! We are really excited but I feel like this week is just dragging on. I will of course post more later, but I don't think we're going to tell the family and stuff until after the first ultrasound. That way we know everything is ok and I will feel a lot better about shouting it to the world then! lol

First ovulation weekend and Jaina's graduation

2010-06-07T13:26:00.000-05:00

Well we made it through of first ovulation and now it's time for the waiting game. I can't take a test for about 2 weeks and I can already tell this will be the longest 2 weeks ever, well until the end of my pregnancy lol. I'm excited to find out if we succeeded! And if we don't then that just means we try again and again until it happens. I'm trying to be as optimistic as possible.

So Jaina graduated from her puppy class. To most people that's no big deal, but if you have ever been around Jaina you know she is hyper and crazy. So for her to actually do what we say and stay calm somewhat is huge! Jaina did great at the graduation, she had a few problems with staying still because she was so hyper and excited, but it worked out great! Afterward, we walked around and talked to some friends then went to the dog park. Unfortunately it had rained a little so no one else was there, but Jaina had a blast. We threw the ball and she just ran like the wind. She gets so happy when we take her out that I wish we had a back yard so she could go out every day.

Puppy graduation this weekend! plus more

2010-06-02T15:37:00.000-05:00

I'm so excited Jaina is graduating from her puppy class this Sunday! I think she will do so well, she does perfect at home and I can't believe she obeys! lol She'll have to do just a few commands to pass: sit, stay, drop it, lay down, and come when called! I think she has it in the bag, but we'll see. We had a little accident this past week at practice, she got really possessive over some toys and kind of snapped at the other dogs but she didn't hurt any of them. I don't know what got into her or if she'll do it again, but Rob our trainer said it was fine and we didn't need to worry just watch her and correct her if she tries it again. Because she's still a puppy, even though she doesn't look like it, she is still learning and will do things she shouldn't.

In other news, Luke is still working with Movie Gallery and will stay on til the end of the liquidation. We don't know when exactly that is, but he is looking for a new job too. I am also still looking and hope to get something asap! It's been stressful for us both but we know we will get through this. We do have some options so it's not the end of the world and you never know what will happen. We are still planning on going back to college this fall and hopefully that will hope more doors. I am going to do some classes in preparation for nursing and Luke will hopefully be attending a school for gaming. He really wants to go to a school that is based out of Florida and has online classes, but it is really expensive. I mean it does have great benefits to going there: the degree only takes 21 months and they have connections with top companies. And yes we have research them and it is all true. I just hope we can get enough grants and scholarships to help cover it, if we can. If not I don't know if he can attend and it breaks my heart. He wants this so bad and I really want him to have this. But the debt would be something I don't think we could get out of so we'll have to wait and see.

We are also going to start trying to a baby this week. I know it's weird to say we're not working and worried about school yet trying for a family. But we are just trying to have faith that everything will work out and we'll do ok. I mean I've seen people in much worse situations and do ok. Of course we won't know if we're pregnant for many weeks and then we still have to see a doctor, but of course I will tell everyone when we know!

mother nature hates me

2010-05-24T11:21:00.000-05:00

So with my first AF (aunt flow) comes the prep of us trying to get pregnant again. I forgot how stressful and nervous it can be. You have to start the prenatal vitamins, exercise, get better sleep, eat right, and lower stress. It doesn't sound hard but put it all together and it's different. And luckily I have kept up with some of it so it's not so hard to try and remember everyday. I am getting really excited and Luke seems to be feeling better about it too now that it's getting closer to us trying. Now I think of mothers would be a little apprehensive to us starting again. My mom wants me to lose more weight and I am (so far over 10 lbs!). I don't know if I've lost anymore with AF being here but hopefully I will see a change next week. Also I hate AF, I haven't had a regular, painful AF since January and this just sucks. I mean yes the recovery over the past few months has been hell but I didn't expect or maybe didn't want this AF to be like a regular one. I was hoping it would be light and easy going since just about 2 or 3 weeks ago I stopped bleeding after 10 weeks! and yes I bleed for 10 full weeks, it was redonkulous and I hope no one ever has to go through that. But hopefully this to shall pass and we can move on to the next thing in our lives!

Time to try again

2010-05-19T14:44:00.001-05:00

So I've been feeling better and I have gotten my first period since the miscarriage. So me and Luke have talked about it and we are gonna try again this month. We won't be able to start for about a week and a half, but we going to. I'm really excited and looking forward to this next step in moving on, but Luke is really worried. I know he just scared about me, but I am feeling so much better both physically and emotionally. So I guess we'll see what happens next! We'll keep you posted in what's happening next!

Oh and both Lucas and I are trying to get everything together so we can go back to college this fall!! I have already started some stuff and Lucas has picked a couple of colleges. So hopefully we can get all the info turned in so we can start in the fall!!

Update on Jaina's class

2010-05-16T19:50:00.000-05:00

Well we are half way through Jaina's puppy class and she is doing great most days. She does great when we practice at home, but when we go to class she has a hard time paying attention. She starts by getting so uber excited when we walk in then she barks at everyone like she's trying to get everyone's attention. It's cute but annoying at times too. Then while we're in class she keeps her attention more on the trainer or people walking around then on us. It's so funny watching Luke try and get her attention because she wants nothing to do with him. lol But toward the end of class Luke got a call and I had to take over and Jaina did perfect for me! lol She did everything really well and it only took her a couple of tries to get the commands down. She is doing so great! Luke and I think how we ever went without her in our lives. Now don't get us wrong she can drive us so crazy we want to scream, but she can also just melt your heart too. I will try and get some video of her, but I will definitely put up her graduation picture when the class ends.

Still going strong

2010-05-13T12:24:00.000-05:00

I'm still feeling great! I will on occasion have a little pain, but nothing like it was. I'm able to get up, clean, cook, and even go out without many if any problems. It's so nice and it seems like it took forever to get here. But we're here and we have decided to start trying again soon. I've already started doing the ovulation tests and we'll see when we can start trying again! I know it's fast but it's what we want and we know it could take a little time so we'll take it as it comes.

Well here are some other updates. Luke's job is closing so he is looking for a new job, but has already got a couple of really good offers. He just wants to think about it a little because one is a sales job and the other is collection calls. Neither of which he has done before or has any really big interest in. The sales job is mostly door to door and a neighbor here says he does great and it's super easy. So Luke may take that just to have good pay and benefits, and he might even be able to take some college classes at night or on the weekends!

I am still looking for a job, but now that I'm feeling better I can look a lot harder and hopefully get something with good pay and hours. I still have unemployment for the moment but I really want to find a job. It would be nice to be working again and have extra money that we can start buying some stuff or save. Also I am applying to go back to college this Fall and I will hopefully get my business degree and start on some prerequisites for nursing. I can't take nursing classes until i get into the program. Unfortunately I can't even take the test until Feb or something like that, and then I would start the classes the next semester. So we have a lot going on, but we have our fingers crossed that everything will work out like it's suppose to!

Finally a good update!

2010-05-10T15:13:00.000-05:00

Well last week I went for another ultrasound and they found the blood clot and tissue is decreasing. That's really good because if it had gotten bigger or stayed the same I might have had to have another surgery to repair or possible remove my fallopian tube. The doctor did say it will be another month before I'd be really healed. But at least I'll be better! Also Luke and I will start trying again a little while after I'm better so within the next couple of months. We're not going to push it but we will try again. That's all I have for now!

What should I do?

2010-05-03T19:03:00.000-05:00

I don't know if I should call a lawyer about all the medical stuff. I have been in a lot of pain lately and I called the doctor both Friday and today, all he wants to do is bring me in for more tests that will increase my debt. He wouldn't even give me pain meds! And the nurse even said today that I shouldn't still be in pain. So I just wonder if I should call the lawyer, is it worth it? Just with everything that has happened I just feel that he didn't do what he should. Or did he? If anyone can give advice that would be great! Thanks

Well they lied

2010-04-29T15:27:00.000-05:00

Well today I got 2 bills in the mail from all this miscarriage care and stuff. I did call and get a discount for not having insurance but it still is over $300 worth of medical bills. I hate growing up. One was from the doctor for labs even though he told me he would "take care of me". And the other is from the ER but it's for the physicians not the ER itself. Which I think is weird, why don't they just put it all in one bill? Why am I paying 2 physicians originally over $500??? That's crazy. Ok rant over, Thanks for listening! lol

More pain to come

2010-04-28T14:32:00.000-05:00

Well I'm still bleeding and in pain so I decided to go ahead and call the doctor. And from what he can gather over the phone 2 things are happening. 1. I still have a blood clot in my tube that hasn't been absorbed yet. Apparently when I went to the ER a couple of weeks ago they saw it on the ultrasound but didn't tell me. Anyways the doctor said they will cause me a lot of pain until it is absorbed and there is nothing they can do except treat with pain meds. 2. I might be having my regular period and just in more pain. I could be in pain like this for the next couple of periods while my body is healing. This really sucks. But luckily the bleeding isn't as bad and seems to be tapering off a little. So maybe after this week I can feel better?

In other news nothing exciting happening around here. Luke is working a lot more hours which is good for his paychecks but it sucks he's not here as often. Jaina is doing great in her puppy class. I didn't get to go a couple weeks ago cause I was feeling bad but I sucked it up and went this past week. She did good but for some reason it was harder to get and keep her attention on Luke while he trained her. But she finally did pretty good and we keep training her at home too. She does better here but she doesn't have very many distractions so that's probably why. We did take her to a dog park a few miles from her class and let her play with some dogs and one of her puppy class mates. His name is Cowboy, and he loves to play with Jaina. They are so cute in class and that's their #1 distraction is each other. But they do ok. The only problem we had was another dog there. Her name was Shelby and she was a 9 month old black lab. She seemed really sweet but when Jaina started to run around Shelby wouldn't just chase her, she'd bite her. I thought at first it was just her was of playing and getting excited. Like maybe she just didn't know better, but she kept doing it and I later found out after they finally left, from Cowboy's owners that she is like that and worse sometimes. I don't get why owners bring dogs untrained and aggressive to dog parks. I mean what is Shelby really hurts a dog some day? I mean I know Jaina is loud and hyper but she'd never hurt a dog on purpose, the only time she has hurt a dog is when she was playing with my mom's much smaller dog and that was just cause she's big. I wouldn't let her go around and bite other dogs! Ok so my rant is over. I'll try and remember to give an update on her classes more often

Smiling more

2010-04-20T20:51:00.000-05:00

I noticed that I've been smiling more! It's like it kinda snuck up on me, but I like it. It's nice to smile more that cry and to think more positively. I hope it keeps up and gets better! So this Sunday Lucas and I celebrated our 1 year anniversary. And even if it didn't go as planned, since I'm still in pain and stayed in bed all day, it was still really good. Luke didn't Sunday off work, but he got Monday. So we spent the day together and enjoyed the day. We watched some episodes of an old series we like, Firefly (came before a movie called Serenity) and I ordered a cake from the same woman who did our wedding cake. I wanted a mini version of our cake but I guess she couldn't do that, but she remade the top tier of our cake in a different flavor. It is so cute and I'll post a picture when I can. It was so nice to just kind of be together. I feel that between Luke working more and taking care of me and the house that we don't really get to spend that much time together. I will post me about our anniversary later. And an update: I went to see another doctor today and he explained some things to me. The reason I'm still in pain is because I'm still healing and it will take some time, and also I'm bleeding because my hormone levels are still not back to normal. But it should be healing up in the next couple weeks, it's just taking longer because the surgery didn't work and I had to have the shot 3 weeks later. So it's taking me about 3 weeks more to heal. I'm resting as much as possible and will be until I feel better. Hopefully that will help things move faster. So until another day.

decisions

2010-04-18T17:00:00.000-05:00

Over the years I have made good and bad choices like anyone. But one thing I have done a lot is chose the wrong friends. I made my peace with having only a handful of close friends and leaving all of the others to their own. For the most part that has worked out better than I could have thought, I don't have a lot of drama or craziness in my life and I like that. But over this past year I have found that someone I thought was my best friend might not really be. (not you Whit so calm down babe) She got a new boyfriend and that's when things changed. She didn't let me know about him for almost a month then wouldn't let me meet him for about 6 or 7 months. She never calls, texts, or comes around anymore. And with what just happened with Luke and I, I really needed people behind me and she was no where to be found. And I have only asked one thing of her and she couldn't help because she was too mad about customers at work. So should I try to mend the relationship? And who should reach out to whom? She's been a great friend til now but I keep asking myself if she really is a real friend since she wasn't here when I needed her the most. Maybe the answer will come to me soon.

Day 6- ok so it's a little late

2010-04-17T00:48:00.000-05:00

I haven't been up to blogging lately and sorry for that. Yesterday I was rushed to the Er again with extreme pain. This time is was worse than anything I have ever felt. After about 4 hours and no pain meds, they tell me I have scar tissue forming on my tubes and it's inflamed. But it's nothing to worry about and then they finally gave me pain meds and sent me home with a script for more. I also have a small UTI but it must not be that bad cause they didn't even catch it at first. And pretty much since yesterday til now, I've been asleep or on pain meds that make me loopy. I guess my good thing for today was I decided no more doctors over this. I'm just going to let nature do it's work. I mean every time I go to the doctor nothing they do helps, so why go? If I really need to I'll go to one but I'm going to try not to. For now I'm in pain but hopefully it will go away soon.

On another note, Sunday I will have been married for 1 year! I can't believe it's been a year. I crazy one but I'm glad I'm married to Lucas. We don't get to celebrate on Sunday cause we have Jaina's class and they Luke has to work later. But he took off Monday so we can spend some time together and go out to eat. Simple but sweet!

Day 5- A painful day

2010-04-13T20:27:00.000-05:00

Well it's really hard to write something positive today. For the past few days I've been cramping and bleeding a lot more. Which sucks because this is week 7 and last week I started medicine to help stop it. If things don't get better by Friday I'm calling the doctor. I'm scared though. I only have a couple options; wait and see, start birth control, or surgery. But there are no guarantees with any of it. And I don't want to start birth control because last time I had a lot of problems like weight gain, cysts, and we do want to get pregnant again so it would be pointless I think. But surgery may be too much for me to handle right now too. What am I suppose to do? I have a third chose, but it's really want I'm doing now which is waiting. The meds are suppose to be helping yet I feel as if nothing will ever get better. I don't know how many times I have said or will say it but I just want things to go back to normal. I want to be the fat wife who was trying to lose the weight and find work. I want to be able to walk my dog with out being in pain later afterward. Life seems so unfair. I mean I've married almost a year, well a year this weekend, which is amazing, but I haven't even been able to take a honeymoon. I see a lot of friends around me with their life together and going so well, while I feel like mine has been going south for a year and I don't see an end in sight. Now I love my friends don't get me wrong, I'm so proud of them but I do with I was them sometimes.

Ok so now that I've ranted enough, on to good things. I think the best thing about everyday is my dog. I can look at her and almost always feel myself smiling. Well this morning I kept getting phone calls so I woke up early and not too happy. I forgot to give Jaina her morning cuddles, she spoiled rotten! So after I had fully woken and made a few phone calls I sat down on the couch and looked at Jaina. She looked up at me with these sweet sad eyes and then I remembered she likes her morning cuddles. You have never seen a dog get so happy so fast. She was like 'finally'! lol Later we got to take a walk with Luke and she played with a few other dogs which is so cute! So if you ever feel down or just want to smile. Get or find a dog!

Day 4

2010-04-12T21:45:00.000-05:00

I'm still trying to get use to blogging every night. I'm use to only doing it once a week or so and this just feels weird and a little forced to get on here. Today was pretty boring and uneventful. Luke and I watch some True Blood and went to the grocery store. He got called in early to work so we didn't get to spend as much time together, but at least I got a few hours! I did get to enjoy a walk with Jaina. We love taking walks in this weather, it's beautiful and not too hot! She gets to run and sniff everything and I just enjoy being outside. Unfortunately I have been in more pain lately so we don't get to walk as often or as much I as would like. I'm hoping to feel better soon so we can enjoy the out doors more and I won't have to worry about hurting later. Well night all.

Day 3

2010-04-11T22:14:00.000-05:00

My mom is awesome. She has been given a lot of clothes over the past few years, more the last couple of months. Well since her clothes are literally over flowing she is give me a ton of clothes. This is great since I haven't been able to go out and get clothes. She's already given me a huge box and still has a ton more to give me. Also I took Jaina over to my mom's today while I went through some of the clothes. But have you ever seen a dog with it's head of out a move car's window? Well Jaina loves to do it on nice day and she is the happiest dog in the world when she gets to! No matter what kind of day I'm having just watching her with that head out puts a smile on my face!

Day 2

2010-04-11T01:43:00.000-05:00

Today was great! Luke had the day off, his first in over a week, so we took Jaina to the park and let her run. She is so cute when we take her, she runs and chases the ducks. Last time we took her she jumped into the lake trying to chase a duck. lol After the park we went to my mom's to pick up a few bags of clothes she gave me. Most of them I can't wear or there out of season, but it was still really nice to get them. And tonight we had a few of Luke's friends over to hang out. They really didn't do much, but I know it makes Luke happy to spend time with them, so it makes me happy too. Well see ya tomorrow

New Assignment: Day 1

2010-04-10T01:27:00.000-05:00

So my therapist, yes I see a therapist, wants me to start blogging about good things. So every night I will be writing at least a paragraph about something good that happened during the day. And since I wanted to bring more happiness to the blog this seems like a good thing.

So to start, today Luke and I got to use my aunt's Sam's Club card to get amazing deals of some stuff and it saved us a ton of money, which is always nice. And even though we didn't get to go for our walk with Jaina, we were able to sit and eat an early dinner and watch some tv off the DVR. We are a very simple family and to me just sitting together is just as fun sometimes as playing a game or going out. I also started planning our 1 year anniversary. I am trying to get a smaller version of our wedding cake, we didn't save the top tier, and we want to go out to dinner. Well that's it for tonight. I'll be back tomorrow! Night all

Jaina's training

2010-04-07T12:28:00.000-05:00

I just realized this is not a very happy blog. It started out as a happy blog, I promise, a way to communicate with family and friends about the latest news in our lives. But I was reading some of the last few posts and realized this is not a happy, it's very depressing. And if all strangers read of this blog is my sad story then they don't really leave it feeling happy. They leave feeling sad and sorry for us. Well lets put a little positive in this today.

We have a puppy, Jaina, who is a lab/boxer mix. She is so sweet and adorable. We have had her since she was 5 weeks old, so she about 8 months old now! But when I woke up today I looked over at her sleeping in my husband's spot and her ears went down but her tail just started wagging. Then she stays on her belly, but still moves to me and cuddles and kisses me. It is the best wake up ever and most days it's how I wake up. I wish everyone could have a dog like ours so they could experience the ubber cutest that we do! But I'm also glad she's all ours.
Well we just started some puppy training at our local Petsmart. And she is doing so well! We've only had one class so far but it's still be good. There are two other dogs in the class, I like that it's so small, and it's funny watching her with them. Jaina is very jealous of other dogs because she's never had to be around a lot of them. So we hope she will learn to not be so jealous of other dogs and people. But anyways every time the trainer would work with another dog she would run over there and bark until she got attention or a treat too. lol It was so funny.

I hope to shows we do have good moments in our lives. Just hang in there with me while I get through our lose and you'll see. This will be filled with happiness!!

Check up

2010-04-06T10:13:00.000-05:00

Today I had another check up with the doctor. It was suppose to be just blood work, but since I've been having pains and more bleeding, the doctor saw me. After telling him all that's been happening, he put me on progesterone, hormone. It will help stop the bleeding and an adding benefit, since I have to be on it for 2 months I won't get a period during that time either. We didn't want to put me on the birth control since we do want to start trying again in a few months. So this was the best option. The only bad news is that there's nothing he can do for the pain. He did tell me that the cramps are from the bleeding, just like a normal period, and the sharp pain is just from me healing up. I could still have pain for the next month, but I should stop bleeding this week! I'm glad I finally got some kind of good news. I will find out the blood results later today or maybe tomorrow morning, but I feel that it will be good and my hormone levels will be down!

Well hopefully good things will keep coming our way. I still have unemployment and will have it for at least another 8 weeks, but I don't know how long after that. The problem that I am facing is that I need to make at least what I make in unemployment or more so we can stay afloat. I'm scared we won't get that, but I hope we can find something. Luke's work has been closing stores and for now he's safe, but we don't know for how long. So please keep us in your thoughts while we get through all this. I really don't know how much more we can take, but I guess we can only deal with it and come out on the other side.

This sucks: a rant

2010-04-04T11:04:00.000-05:00

So I have been feeling better the past few days. Luke took off work last week and we were able to spend some time together, go out to eat, and go have some fun. Not every day was a good one emotionally for me, but over all it was really good for me. So yesterday I decided to do some cleaning. I have been doing a little here and there. but nothing like I use to or what needs to be done. I started in the bed room, which was terrible. It took me about 45 min and I really only picked up and straighten up. I still need to dust and vacuum. Then I went into my closet and hung up some clothes and organized a little. Lastly I started on my bath room, which hasn't been cleaned in almost 2 months. It was simple to clean the sink area and toilet, but the shower was hard and I had to stop half way through. So I take a break and then I start hurting. Then I realize I'm bleeding heavier then I have been. So after talking to my mom and remembering that I bleed more when I do more, it has been decided that I'm again on semi bed rest and can't do anything but heal. This just sucks! I feel like I have done nothing for a month and a half. Which I haven't. All I have been able to do is sit. I know I'm healing and I need to sit to do that, but really? I thought after a month it would be ok to get up. All I want to do is walk around and clean my house. I want to be able to go to the mall with out fear that I'm doing to much and will regret it when I get home. If any of you take the time to read through this, 1 thank you and 2 what should I do? If you have had a kid, it's similar to the bleeding after that. It can last from 6-8 weeks and the more I do, the more I bleed. So any advise?

Still going

2010-03-31T23:52:00.000-05:00

Well this week Luke took off work so we could have some us time. We thought this could help us have a good time and put our minds on other things. Well it has worked a little, not everything has gone as planned and that just gets me upset.

I'm still very hormonal and from what everyone says, the end is not in sight. Luke has been very patient with me and I don't know how the man does it. One minute I can be happy and laughing then I'm either crying like crazy or mad as a bull.

But anyways we finally had a pretty good day, today. Only one thing didn't go as planned but it worked out anyways. Luke took me to Opry Mills malls and we got to window shop, eat and play at Dave and Busters, and lastly we got to watch "Alice in Wonderland". It was amazing btw. The only thing that didn't go as planned was the movie, at first. We had planned on seeing an earlier movie but our food took longer than we thought. Luke got me cheered up by playing games with me. I have planned games in a long time, and I've never been any good. But today I did great! And I won over 1,000 tickets!! If anyone ever needs a boost they should go to a Dave and Busters. Good food and you get to play games. What really helped me was the winning of tickets. It makes you feel like you did something great! We had to leave before we could use all of our credits but that just means we get to go back! And we were only a few minutes late to the movie.

Well for those who are wondering how I am, I ok. I have good times and bad. Every day is different and even parts of the day are different. Like I said one minute I'm fine and others I'm not. But me and Luke are working through it together. I have started going back to therapy and I think that will help a lot. I know it will take time to get better, but I just wish it would happen faster. It has been over a month and I'm feel drained most of the time. I think that I hate the most is that I can't even go for a good walk with Jaina (dog). I get tired and in pain. My mom says I'll get back to where I need to and just keep at it, but I just want to be fine again. I am getting a lot of support from family, friends, and even strangers. I'm still getting comments from my "Another kick in the head" blog and that is just amazing. Every time I read through the comments it gives me hope and encouragement. So for now I'm ok and getting better with time.

Saying "Thank you" just isn't enough

2010-03-25T16:32:00.000-05:00

I got a surprising text this morning from my best friend Whitney telling me a I should look at my blog, that my comments had exploded. Surprised is not even the word to describe seeing over 30 comments on my last post. And as I read through them all I was amazed. Amazed at how great people are. So to everyone who offered their support I say Thank you. As I read through all the comments and the ones throughout the day I smiled, laughed, and cried. It was so touching for so many people to say just a kind word, or offer support, or even virtual hugs & cupcakes! (I love cupcakes) It made me feel a 1,000 times better just to read through it all. I even woke my husband and made him read through it all, by the end he had a huge smile on his face. We never imagined by me writing about all of this we would find so much support from strangers. I mean I've had strangers tell me they are sorry for our lose, but that's usually at the doctor's office and such, people I've spoken with and talked to face to face. But all these people I have never met, seen, or know sent me so much love, caring, and support! It's just amazes me how great people are. One thing alot of people commented was they thought I was a strong person, well I don't feel that way but after reading those words I felt so much stronger. So if any of those people are reading this now, Thank you, from the bottom of mine and Luke's heart, Thank you. You have no idea how happy and what joy you sent to us.

Another kick in the head

2010-03-19T22:16:00.000-05:00

Well I guess I shouldn't have started to feel better. Wed night I had to go back to the ER because of extreme pain and bleeding. I had been feeling fine til then but then all of a sudden I was in pain. The doctor did a bunch of tests and found that my hormone levels still indicated I was pregnant. So I had an ultrasound done and nothing. All they could figure was there was still some tissue left and it was keeping my body from healing like it should. So I had to have a shot and now I feel worse than ever, but hopefully only for a week at the most. I went to the doctor today and he was very sorry that he missed anything and said he would take help me however he could, and even continue to treat me even though my insurance doesn't cover him. I go back on Wed to recheck my hormones and if all is well I'm free and clear to start healing. I think what makes is so hard is that I was feeling better emotionally and was actually smiling and laughing more. Now all those emotions are back even more than before. And I feel so lonely. My best friend is in another state and my other friend doesn't even talk to me anymore because of her boyfriend. I've been lucky though to have my mom stay with me and help me out while Luke is at work. He has been acting strong for me but this is hurting him too. I know we can get through this with time. But for now it sucks

The crooks!

2010-03-13T13:19:00.000-06:00

So me and Luke don't have health insurance because we can't afford it. Well Marita was nice enough to let Luke stay on her insurance until the end of the year so that helped. Well now it's time for Luke to go to the doctor and he needs more Advair. So I called an insurance company and they said they won't cover asthma and allergies because it's a pre-existing condition and they can't go into it losing money. WTF I mean, he's had this forever and if he doesn't get the medication I'm pretty sure he dies (hope not but since he can't breath without it). So now I don't know what to do and I'm totally confused. We're having a late lunch with Luke's mom and sister today for his bday, so maybe Marita can help me figure something out. This is just another reason I don't like being an adult. That and it's too dang expensive. lol

a little better

2010-03-07T13:52:00.000-06:00

We're doing better! It's not easy but we are just taking it day by day. I've decided to keep stocking up on baby items and in a few months we will try again! I know I want to try again but that right now is not the right time. We figure that if we buy some baby items now and throughout the pregnancy, it's not as hard on the wallet. I'm trying to stay away from gender stuff but we already have a bunch of boy clothes. I guess we're just hopeful for a boy. This does not mean we're not grieving still, only that we are trying to look forward to the future and stay positive. I go back to the doctor Thursday and he should give us an update on how I am doing and when we can start trying again, physically at least. We may not be ready mentally but when we are I want to know we can try.

Going forward

2010-03-04T17:45:00.000-06:00

I'm doing better every day. Sometimes it's hard and I have some moments where I just cry and feel hopeless. I know it's silly and I shouldn't, but sometimes I feel like I could have done something to prevent all this. That I could still be pregnant if only... I know it wasn't anyone's fault and there was nothing we could have done, but sometimes it's just how I feel. But I'm trying to move on. Luke is doing better but still hurting even if he tries to hide it. He thinks he has to be so strong for me but he doesn't. We've talked a little and decided when we both feel we're ready, we are going to start trying again for another baby. It will probably be another 3 months or so but we'll get there. In the mean time we have each other and our puppy!

One day at a time.

2010-02-27T17:35:00.000-06:00

I'm home and starting to recover. I'm taking it one day at a time and it seems to get better as I go. I am still in alot of pain so I try to keep the pain meds in my system at all times. Also I am really swollen from the surgery so I stay in pj's all day and my mom just gave me a bunch of her old clothes so that should help. It's tough laying down, so I'm only sleeping a few hours at a time and Luke helps me whenever he can. He's been really great and I'm so lucky he's been able to stay home with me the past couple of days, tomorrow he goes back to work so I'll see how I can handle it on my own. I'm still trying to keep this updated as much as possible but we'll see how it goes as I'm healing up. Thanks to all my friends and family for being there for us. It means so much to have people who care so much!

Lost

2010-02-26T15:10:00.000-06:00

I lost my baby........I've never felt so alone, scared, and depressed in my life. The baby never made it to the uterus and implanted in my tube. Unfortunately there wasn't anything the doctors could do except take the baby. Luckily the doctor said we can start trying about in about 3-6 months and we plan on it. I didn't really realize how many people I had to support me until this happened. It's nice to know there are people how care so much and love us. I'm not ok today but I will be one day, I just need some time to heal. I don't think words can express how thankful I am to have friends and family like I do. They are the best!

Doctor's appointment

2010-02-23T16:40:00.000-06:00

Well I finally set up a doctor's appointment, but unfortunately it's not until March 22. My doctor doesn't see patients until they are 8 weeks pregnant. So I have to wait. Although, I'm kinda glad cause this way we will definitely get to hear a heartbeat on our first visit! We really cannot wait to hear the heart for the first time. Luke is so cute, he's so excited. He's started talking to my belly and saying he should have "21 toes" lol. 10 fingers 10 toes and a penis. lol Luke really wants a little boy although I know he would be just as excited to have a little girl.

Silly worries

2010-02-22T12:02:00.002-06:00

Maybe I'm just a worrier but I have gotten a little scared. Yesterday (of course the day after we tell everyone I'm pregnant) I started getting a little spotting. Now everyone says I'll be fine as long as I'm not cramping, which I'm not. But this is my first pregnancy and all and I'm worried. Luckily I started getting my morning sickness and soreness back this morning which helps me feel better. I just wonder do all moms to be feel like this during their pregnancy? I just want a healthy, happy baby! I'll feel a lot better once we go to the doctor later on this week or next but I guess until then I'll just be a little worried.

A new adventure

2010-02-21T15:05:00.002-06:00

Well I am going to be a mommy! I can't believe it. Of course I only found out a few days ago, but I just couldn't keep it to myself. We still have a long way to go and I can't wait to experience everything! So here's all the details so far: I am 5 weeks pregnant, but have not gone to the doctor to hear the baby's heartbeat or anything. But I am definitely having symptoms, I'm having "morning" sickness I haven't gotten sick but I stay nauseous throughout the day, I'm very tender and sore, I can smell everything and have found that I don't like most smells, and lastly I am tired all the time. Now I know these could stay or go but for now they're there lol. Luke and I have talked a lot about having a baby so we already know some things we will and won't do. Luke is so nervous, he's just scared about being a father and taking care of a baby. It was so funny when I told him I got a positive pregnancy test, he was so happy and hugging me but then you could just watch as the shock set in! Now I look back and it was the funny thing I have ever seen from him. He's still nervous but not as bad. We will have a lot of appointments over the next few weeks with insurance and stuff but I will try and keep this updated so everyone knows what's going on. I will be going to the doctor in the next couple of weeks and if I can I'll add pics or whatever!

It can change in a flash.

2009-09-11T23:16:00.002-05:00

I think I'm really getting into this whole blogging thing. lol I starting thinking about how things have changed so quickly. It seems like only yesterday me and Luke met and here we are over 4 years later, married, and in a great new home. I can't help but think of how lucky I am, even with all the bad that has happened the last few months I still have a great life.

And lucky me, Luke has the whole weekend off and we will probably be watching Elijah tomorrow for the whole night. He has only slept over once and that was when Luke's dad and grandfather. Elijah did great for his first sleep over here and I got lots of baby cuddles. And if you have children or babies near you, you know how great baby cuddles are!

So I'm sitting here watching Lilo and Stitch and silly as it may sound, I really like this movie. It's so cute and Stitch is just adorable!!!! But I like kiddie movies more than I do others. Most of them are innocent and cute. What's not to like about them?

Looking for a pet will cost you.

2009-09-10T20:10:00.002-05:00

Lucas and I decided that we would start looking for a dog after we got settled into our new apartment. Well this past week I have been looking at a few different breeds available: french bulldog, toy poodle, boxer, and corgi's. I can't not believe the prices these breeders are asking for! They go for $1,500 starting easy. I even went to one site and it stated that they had cut there prices in half due to the bad economy, they were still $1,500. Why is it these breeders sell these dogs for so much. You have to be rich just to buy one not to mention all the addition items and services you'll have to get. I just want a small puppy not put a down payment on a car or something. And then I get the thinking, are breeders really a great way to go in getting a dog. There are tons are dogs in shelters, pounds, and on the streets. So I go the the local humane society and it's a minimum of $135 and my bet would be a puppy would cost way more. I can understand that the shelters need help with food and with medical. But what about the breeders most of these people don't need the help and I'm sure that they don't put $1,500 into these dogs. But since they register the dogs it means they can charge more for them. And what is this AKC? Is it really necessary? And what makes it so special? Nothing! So why not sell the dogs for a more reasonable price? Well maybe my questions will be answered when I'm dead. lol But I will still look for that perfect dog for us!

Life as I know it

2009-09-10T03:07:00.002-05:00

I have to say that since I have been married life has not gone that way I would like. Now don't get me wrong me and Lucas have a great life together and we love each other, but in my personal life it couldn't be more different. A week after our "I do's" I lost my job suddenly. Since then I have not been able to find a job because I'm either over or under experienced. I was depressed for a while but with the help of friends and family I pulled through. Then 2 weeks before we were set to move into a nice new apartment I fall (like usual) and my knee. So not only couldn't I pack much, I couldn't even help move without hurting myself further. Then the day we move a come down with a nasty virus that has been going around and had aunt flow visit that same day. Needless to say I needed a break from all the bad karma or something. Now I still can't find a job, but I'm not sick anymore and will be having another doctor look at my knee to see what's wrong. Maybe I'm on the mend from all the bad stuff!

Well now on the good stuff. Well in marrying Lucas my family grew a good amount. I now officially have a beautiful nephew whom are adore more than anything. I will have many pictures and stories of him I'm sure. Me and Lucas aren't quite ready for kids yet so we're hoping to wait a while before we head down that path. But in the mean time I will spoil everyone else's kids and love every second.